(DISCONTINUED) Crushing on 2, Only Loving 1.. ♥️🖤~||||~🖤💜

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Chapter 3

When we came back it was already pretty late and we knew that the rest of the group would come back at any second so we didn't waste any time. Jaxx finally found his phone as it was laying on the couch; he must've forgotten it when they were conversing in the morning.

Now I am laying in bed staring into darkness, 3 hours have passed and it is now around 12:00 AM. I put my head under my covers in hopes of maybe sleeping then, nothing. I heard my phone go off so I grabbed it off of my nightstand and turned it on.

"Jaxx..?" I whispered in a tired tone, I opened his notification as he had sent me a message 'what could he want.' I thought.

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Jaxx♥️
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——12:06 A.M——

Are you awake?

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I think so, aren't I texting you?

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I slightly laughed at the obvious but still wondered why he had texted me at such a time. he then sent me another text.

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New notification from Jaxx♥️

Me and Light are in the backyard, want to join us?
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'They're outside?' I thought to myself as I sat up from my bed. I turned my phone off and went to my bathroom to at least brush my hair since I knew it was a mess.

God how I hate mirrors, I hate looking at myself and what I hate about myself. I noticed I had eye bags from not being able to sleep well. I sighed and
Started to brush my hair, the hair Jaxx fixed as it was getting long. The only thing that looked bad about it was my dye fading away and leaving an ombré look that started as a very light orange- yellow and ended with the original color I had dyed it to, a platinum blond.

"Maybe instead of blonde dye on my hair it should be red...or purple.." I muttered then laughed silently at the fact that I was talking to myself. I then put the brush down as I walked out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. I grabbed my phone from my bed and exited my room, I didn't even think of grabbing a jacket so I could cover up.. my scarred arms. I sighed and just tried to forget about it. I proceeded to go to the backyard and as I got outside I saw light and Jaxx sitting down on the grass talking to each other, Jaxx noticed me so he waved his hand to me signaling to come over.

I started walking towards them and I heard Light say; "Levi,You're finally here!" He said as I was coming closer to them. I sat down beside Jaxx and waited for them to start talking again. "No sweater at all?" Jaxx said, I knew what he meant and I looked at my arms then at him, I sigh. "No, I guess not." I said as I crossed my arms in discomfort, "what's wrong with Levi?" Asked light while he turned to glance at me then to look at Jaxx. I turned to look at Jaxx and he turned down knowing not to say anything, I looked at Light then felt guilty. He had been there for me when times were hard, do I really want to lie to him?

I sigh, "there's a lot of things I haven't told you about me, a lot." I said as light sat up and listened "I've been going through a lot of stuff and not just with Luca but with my self aswell, I've been fighting to be ok mentally.."I said "I'm tired." I added. Light had his hand over his mouth in shock. I could see that he was trying to say something so I gave him a confused look "sorry, but is that why your arms are scarred..?" He said reluctantly, trying not to offend me. I nodded slightly as I turned to Jaxx who looked sad. I then realized what I done and quickly said, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to ruin the mood-" I said.