You know what, im tired of being careful
Curating who i am, like if im not fucking special
How i act
How i talk
How i mother fucking react
Im tried im lonely im miserable
You say you know how i feel
Well let me tell you
Only me and devil whom shall conceive
I lie i betray i hide
I am no one but yet im in sight
I hear i listen but i don't ever react
I know i feel everything and everyone
I listen i listen and its always ME me meee
Why the fuck do you care about me
I listen i care i dont ever overreact
Im small im weak but not a fucking maniac
I listen and plead to be nothing
But still my mind says "A you'll be executed and amount to nothing"
My mind my heart are not immiscible
I care i feel , yet i stay on my side of the street
You say mean things like thats gonna break me
Yet you have no idea what my mind tells me on the the daily
Call me a freak but honey my mind says you'll never succeed
You're unworthy of love and belong locked up in a pathological mental institution
Im ugly im uncapable of self gratification
Im a sinner im a liar and extremely controversial ♡
My mind is tough, rigid and impossible to please
Sometimes i wish i couldn't hear what others have to unload about me
All i do is listen listen listen and tell myself i dont care
But my mind like a record player only sings he said she said they said
It all plays over again and again until im oozing pain and disdain
Im in pain, buts its all invain
My physical body can edure it
For it is the same vessel that adores it.
