Distant ➸ Aaron Ramsey

Two: The Internal Debate

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"Thanks for getting Archie," Jack says.

I can't find myself to look away from Aaron and respond to Jack.

The question in his eyes filled me with too much of anger, which pressured my veins. His eyes were nothing like what I remembered - a soft and glittery caramel - they developed a cold barrier across the years. It feels like they're unknown to me, and the way he's looking at me is almost like adding fuel to the fire. The lack recognition in his eyes turns my anger into hurt. So much hurt, feeling like a thousand pinpricks through my chest.

"Ivy?" Jack follows my gaze to Aaron and so does Wojciech. They alter their gaze between me and Aaron and I just stare at him.

"Ivy..." Aaron says softly, stepping toward me.

For some reason, I instantly stepped back. Tears prickle my eyes, and I gave up trying to sustain them. They flow freely, and I further step back.

Jack and Wojciech lay there baffled eyes on me. My trembling hands held the doorknob, and I twist it, making my way out.

"Ivy!"

I am not sure who called me, but I just walk aimlessly ahead in the pitch-dark environment.

"Where are you going? What's wrong?" I feel a grip on my hands.

I hold the slap I prepared for Aaron, as I saw a profoundly puzzled Jack behind me.

So he didn't even bother to console me.

"I just have to go," I stutter.

"This late, how will you go alone? At least let me drop you off. How did you get here?" he questions.

I just lift me gaze ahead where the metro station was. He understood and walked ahead, dragging me along with him to the metro station.

"Come," he prints the ticket through self help counters, and yanks me to the seat of the metro, while all I do is sustain my sobs.

"What happened?" Jack questioned. "I mean all of a sudden..."

"I don't wanna talk about it," I say simply, my voice pressured, as it somehow made its way through my knotted throat.

"Do you know Aaron?" he hesitantly looks at me.

"I don't want to talk about it," I repeat, wiping my tears. I breathe deeply, attempting to suppress the rising hurt and anger in my chest. But seems like nothing will work right now. His eyes... scared me now.

As much zeal his glittering eyes portrayed when I knew him, the same amount of coldness they display now. There is no more warmth in them, for which I loved to peek upon every now and then.

He seemed lost. For even that short glimpse I hade of him, I can tell.

I can't even get myself to feel sorry for him. Not after what all happened, and the enormous walls he decide to build between us.

"Ivy, which station?" Jack nudges me, and I look up at him.

I softly mumble out the name. I cover my face with my hands, and sigh deeply.

Maybe I should just talk to him once. He doesn't deserve it.

My internal debate carries on, like an angel and demon on both sides of my shoulder.

"Come on," Jack guides me out. I unintentionally lead the way.

"Drop by to see Archie anytime you want to," he says. "And thank you again." He says sweetly as I unlock the door of my cottage.

"Goodnight, Jack," I murmur weekly before shutting the door.

I lay on my bed, wondering if I have to face Aaron again.

Hopefully. Not.

The way he looked at me gave me chills. Somehow, I just can't bear the thought that all that sweetness, all of his pretty smiles just banishing behind that deceitful obstruction in his eyes.

Get him back. Leave him be.

I squeeze my eyes shut in annoyance, praying that sleep takes over me.

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