Im Not The Only One (A Caspar Lee & Joe Sugg fan fiction)

Chapter 13 - Secrets

*Alison's POV*

Secrets - OneRepublic

1 million views and counting. Zoe and Louise aren't in the room, they must've left for breakfast. My heart races with a thousand beats a second, and just then i hear the door blast open, and Zoe walks toward me with her phone in her hand. I look into her eyes, and they pierce through me, as she puts her phone-screen in front of me.

"What the hell is this?" she says, the screen displaying Joe kissing me, and me kissing him back. Shortly after, i hear Joe coming through the door, clearly stressing as much as i am.

"Ali," he says, completely ignoring Zoe as he quickly sits down next to me on the bed, facing me.

"I'm so sorry Ali, i didn't mean to upload the unedited video," he says, and hugs me.

"Get off of her!" Zoe shouts, and pushes Joe back. I am too stunned to say or do anything, as i'm caught between my best friend and her brother. At this moment, I don't know what to do.

"What the hell is this?" She repeats, this time pointing at us.

"Zoe, calm down," Joe tries to settle her.

"No i wont! Ali, i told you, this would be too weird for me," she says, switching the direction of her finger between both of us. I try to gather my thoughts to speak, but just as i am about to speak, Joe intervenes.

"Zoe, don't blame Ali, i kissed her, not the other way around," he tries to remove the blame from me, but i am also to blame. I wanted him to kiss me.

"So what is this?" she asks, referring to us. Us as a couple. A flash of distress runs through me, as i don't know the answer to that question. What are we?

"I really like her, Zoe," Joe says, and my eyes pan immediately to his. He looks at me, and i can sense vulnerability in his eyes. I think he really means it.

"I kinda wanted to tell her that," he says annoyedly, and puts his hand on mine at the end of the bed.

"I do," he says, leaving me even more speechless. Oh wow. All i can manage is to nod, and turn my face back to Zoe.

"I'm really sorry Zoe, i don't... I didn't... I didn't mean for that to happen," i say, noticing a growing lump in my throat. Her anger slowly fades, but confusion quickly replaces it.

"So wait, do you like him too?" she asks, clenching her eyebrows into a bewildered look.

"Well... Yeah, i think so," i say, looking at him and witness his adorable smile. A silence strikes the room, filled with exchanging looks.

"No, this is too weird," Zoe says, shaking her head. She walks toward the door to exit, and i try to run after her, but she slams the door in my face, and i consider it better for her to be alone for a bit to let everything sink in. The lump in my throat explodes, and i break down on the floor, overwhelmed by everything. I hear Joe run across the room, and sits beside me to comfort me.

"Did you delete it yet?" I ask, wondering how many people already downloaded the video.

"Shit. I'll do it right now," he says, fumbling for his phone.

"Wait". I want to look at the comments, just to see people's reaction. He looks confused, but realizes what I'm about to do when i pull out my phone.

"No Ali, don't," he tries, reaching for my phone with his hands, but i push them away and unlock it. I find my YouTube app, but Joe successfully grabs my phone and puts it behind him.

"Give it back Joe," i say firmly reaching behind him, but he grabs the side of my arms and pushes me back. He looks deep into my eyes, and i notice a sudden mood-change on his part. He is no longer sturdy and firm, he's.... Intense. He moves closer to me, and my heartbeats accelerates. Once again, all my thoughts everything around me disappears as his lips meet mine. I place my hands on his neck, running them through his hair and kissing him back. He moans against my lips, making my body fill with lust. Our lips suddenly part, allowing me to breathe heavily through my mouth, but i'm soon interrupted with another kiss from him. His tongue feels mine as he grabs my waist roughly, and pushes me closer to him. I respond to him, moaning a vigorous moan against his strong, yet soft lips. His hands travel up to my head, holding me in place for his complete access. I mess up his hair on the back of his head by running my hands through it, but as i realize reality, i move them to his chest and push him back. I catch my breath and look into his lustful and confused eyes. It's dead silent in the room, and i use the opportunity to grab my phone from behind him, run to the bathroom and lock the door. He follows, knocking loudly on the door while i unlock my phone.

"Ali, open up," he says with his thick british accent, but i ignore it completely while i find the YouTube app. I quickly search for Joe's channel, and i click on the video. Joe continues knocking on the door as scroll down to the comment section. I view the first comment that appears.

*Didn't just make a video about how she broke up with her ex Ryan? what a slut*

The comment strikes me, and i cover my mouth with my hand, releasing as sob into them. I scroll further down to read the next comment.

*OMG who is this Alison bitch? its been like two days since she broke up with her boyfriend, and now Joe is her rebound? tramp.*

My eyes water, and let a tear fall down. I close the video, and check my own YouTube channel. 203,482 subscribers. What the hell? Yesterday i had 100,000. I don't even consider to be happy about it. I got 100,000 subscribers because i kissed Joe and accidentally uploaded a video of it. I notice my "We Broke Up..." video, and decide to check it.

*SO WHAT IF THEY KISSED? People need to stop being so hateful, its not our business who Joe or Alison kisses, and it was obviously an mistaken upload. We love you Alison!*

It makes me smile slightly, but it soon fades when i remember Zoe and how she told me that it would be weird for her with me and Joe going out, but i kissed him back that night. And i just kissed him back five minutes ago. Ugh, the whole situation is a mess, and i dont know what to do. I really like Joe, but Zoe's friendship means so much to me. I sigh and wipe my tears, as i open the door to let Joe in. He's not mad, he just sits down besides me, and allows me to continue crying into his chest.

"I'm so sorry Alison," he apologizes, stroking my hair away from my face.

"How did it happen? How did you... manage to upload the wrong file, Joe?" i say, trying not to sound to disappointed.

"I named the unedited and the edited video file the same thing, i just picked the wrong one when i uploaded, and i went straight to bed. I didn't find out till we were all at breakfast, and Zoe pulled out her phone to watch the video. We didn't want to wake you up and force you down to the restaurant, seeing all that you have been through lately. She went straight to your room, and i followed her," he explains, and i notice regret in his voice. I lay my hand on top of his, gesturing forgiveness on my part. I couldn't be mad at him, it was an accident. My crying calms down, my eyes drying as he wipes away the remaining drops from my cheeks. It has been about an hour since i woke up, but i am exhausted. My mind is haunted by Zoe's anger towards me, and the public humiliation inhabit my brain before i slowly fade to sleep on Joe's shoulder.

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Thank you guys so much for reading! Are you enjoying so far?

Will Joe and Alison break it off due to the opinions of Zoe? How will Caspar react to the fact that Joe and Alison kissed? How will Ali handle all the hate coming her way through YouTube and Twitter?

All questions will be answered if you continue reading;)

There is a lot to come for Joe and Alison, and you might see some Alispar happen as well;)

I got an A on my english final, and now i have summer break so i think ill update more often.

Love you guys!