Ocean eyes... |Sanegiyuu

The talk

3rd person POV:

Giyuu left his estate without the food, He didn't feel hungry or more so he didn't feel like eating anything. He decided to take a walk to an old friend of his. His name was Sabito He passed away when they were both 13 Giyuu still blames himself for it. He was so weak that day... if only he had been stronger he'd be alive if only it was him instead. Giyuu could hear the same words repeating in his head as he got closer and closer to his grave stone.

Giyuu POV:

I could hear the voices echoing in my head 

"It should have been you"

"You don't deserve to be a hashira"

"It's your fault"

As I got closer and closer to the grave yard the voices never left me alone its all true anyway...It's all my fault hes gone because I was weak and stupid. I sat down by his grave and stayed in my thoughts for a moment. I shouldn't even be here I don't deserve to be here. in this world I have no purpose.

I got up and started to head back soon before I reached my estate a crow came flying above my head "CAW CAW HEAD TO UBUYASHIKI ESTATE GIYUU TOMIOKA RIGHT AWAY CAW CAW" I already know what this is about... I don't want to go..I don't want to talk about it...

Even if I didn't want to I knew I had to. I turned around and sighed as I started walking to the ubuyashiki estate. Every step I took the more nervous and anxious I got, the more I started to sweat.

Soon I reached the ubuyashiki estate the master had already been waiting there for me his face looked sad and depressing. I could sense he was relieved to see me I know we have a lot to talk about. He invited me inside to have tea.

It was silent for a few minutes until the master cleared his throat and sighed to look at me. "Tomioka..." I looked down trying to hold in my tears I felt ashamed of what I had done.

"Your welcome here to talk with me whenever you need it. If you were gone a lot of people would be sad and broken." I couldn't believe his words no one could ever like or love someone like me I'm a worthless piece of shit who can't do anything right. I'm too weak to do anything so I hide in my thoughts.

"Tomioka your worth much more than you give yourself credit for... Your very strong and graceful and a lot of people care for you" I look up and stare at him for a moment I couldn't believe his words. A tear falls down my cheek as I wipe it away quickly.

I turn my head away as more tears fall down my face "I'm sorry don't look at me right now" I say with a soft tone as my voice cracks a little Ubuyashiki smiles softly.

3rd person POV:

"It's okay to cry Tomioka. Just know your not alone, and we're all here for you" Giyuu tries to wipe his face but his tears wouldn't stop falling. Ubuyashiki stayed silent waiting for him to finish.

"I have no one to care for me... They all hate me." Giyuu said still trying to stop his tears. He felt so alone and empty.

Ubuyashiki shakes his head with a sad smile. "That's not true... that's just how you feel." He explained trying to make him get it... to make him see his worth.

"They all dislike me master." Giyuu said with sadness and hurt evident in his voice.

"I understand you feel like that is the truth... but I promise you it's not." He said in a soft tone. He hated how lowly Giyuu viewed himself...

"I think... I should go." Giyuu said. He couldn't view himself any higher than scum. Ubuyashiki nodded.

"I expect you back here tomorrow Tomioka." He said. But Giyuu didn't plan to come back. He didn't plan to be here tomorrow.

Giyuu stood up and took his leave. This time his attempt wouldn't fail. He would make sure of it.

(Writers note: I came back to wattpad after a WHOLE ASS YEAR and I saw someone's comment on the last chapter and decided "I should write more of this!" Sorry for being gone for so long and in any previous chapters their might be mistakes such as missing words or plain spelling errors call it out if you see any!)