7 Minutes ~ Jude Bellingham

taking the leap of faith

Lena's POV:

"I'm in love with you, Butterfly."

Okay. Have you ever had a moment where you wanted to jump up, scream, jump from happiness, but you're terrified at the same moment? Yes? No? Well that's what I'm feeling right now. 

"Wha-what? How? When? Huh?" I responded, making Jude chuckle. 

"You're the prettiest girl I have ever set my eyes on. You're so sweet, always there for me and other people. How can I not be in love with you?" he said. At this point I was blushing like crazy. 

It stayed silent for a while, until Jude spoke up. 

"You don't love me back, do you?" he said. I could hear the disappointment in his voice. 

"N-no it's not that, it's just..." I tried to stutter out, my voice breaking mid sentence. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore and started to cry. Truth is, I was scared. Scared that it would all be like my relationship with Ralf. It started off as a fairytale but ended as the worst nightmare of my life.

Jude scooted over to me and took me in his arms. "Butterfly please don't cry. Talk to me. What's wrong darling, why are you sad? he said, which made me cry even more. He was always so kind to me, so caring. But yet I couldn't give him my full trust. It made me feel very guilty that I compared him to that asshole of a Ralf while in fact, he saved me. 

I knew that if my grandma would see me in this situation, she would scold me for reacting this way. She's the one that always told me to take a leap of faith, and she would be very disappointed if she saw me doubting Jude. Heck, I knew that she was watching me from heaven with a cup of tea in her hand, yelling at me to let all my doubts go and just go for it. That cup of tea was probably on the ground by now up there, in her kitchen in heaven. 

I looked up to the sky. It was almost completely dark, but the moon lighted up the earth just enough for us to see each other clearly. I looked around and I saw a star. There were a lot of stars visible, but one stood out. The star was called Mira. I knew this because I took astronomy in school once. Mira is a special star because sometimes she's visible, and sometimes not. But today, she was extremely visible. 

Funny thing tho, my grandma's middle name was, yes exactly, Mira. The star was so visible for me, that in that moment it was the only thing I saw. 

And that was the moment I realized that it was probably her, telling me that everything would be fine. She was telling me to take the leap of faith. 

"Lena? Butterfly please look at me." Jude snapped me out of my trance, taking my face in his hands. 

"What's wrong my sweet Butterfly?" he asked now he had my full attention. "I'm scared, Jude." I blubbered out. "Why are you scared, cupcake?" he asked with a shushing tone in his voice. "Just-the-euhm. Yeah just, Ralf, maybe?" I managed to say. Talking in full sentences. Difficult huh, Lena?

For a second, I could see a glimp of sadness in Jude's eyes. I felt bad, so bad. 

"I'm not like him Darling, I swear." he said with pain noticeable in his voice. 

"I know Jude, I know. It was stupid from me to think like that but it happened quicker than I thought. I'm sorry." I apologized, hugging his torso. 

"It's okay Butterfly. Next time just talk to me, yeah?" he said making me nod. It stayed silent again for a few minutes.

"So euhm. Do you want to be my girlfriend?" he asked shyly. 

"Yes, Jude. I would love to be your girlfriend." I giggled.

Jude smiled brighter than ever before, and grabbed my face to kiss me. After he kissed me he jumped up and started screaming. 

"BUTTERFLY IS NOW MY BUTTERFLY, YEEEESS!!" he screamed while jumping up and down like a little kid.

I laughed and looked up to the sky, and saw that Mira was shining even brighter than a few minutes ago.