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Day one

Day one: at the Office

"YOU texted me this morning?" Miseria asked when she get in the office of her Doctor. Hindi Ito ganoon kalaki, kaya mabilis n'yang nasipat ang furniture na nasa loob nito ganoon din ang swivel chair na nakatalikod mula sa kanya.

Late s'yang dumating kahit na nagmamadali na s'yang pumunta para sa session n'ya kay Dra. Elpis Jacob. It was her third time to attend Counselling, She and Elpis contacted each other through messages kapag walang session. pero Ayaw na ayaw n'yang pumupunta sa Hospital na ito para mag pa therapy. 

She was diagnosed with severe depression and tried to take her life a lot of times. she was forced to see a doctor after her mother witnessed what she did. Miseria was very frustrated but her mother said it was for the better, to make her feel better.

Hindi na kataka-taka para sa kanya kung bakit ganito ang pagkatao n'ya. Malungkot at mag-isa. Noon, akala n'ya hindi totoo ang nabasa n'ya sa isang libro na Your name is your personality, pero ngayon she was so close to believing na totoo iyon, na kahit anong takbo at tago n'ya ay kabuntot ng pangalan n'ya ang lungkot at sakit, hango ba naman sa isang Greek mythology Goddest ang pangalan n'ya, Na sa lahat ba naman ng diyos sa Greek  mythology ay  kay misera pa s'ya ipinangalan. 

She asked her Mom about it one time.

"Ria, I had no idea. all I knew was that Miseria came from the movie your father had just seen; you should ask him; I was asleep when the doctor asked him what to name you." Her Mom response to her complain.

"Mom, are you asking me dig him up the grave and ask him?"  Napairap ang ina sa naging tanong ni Miseria.

"You should have asked him when he was still alive" 

Naalala n'ya pa ang pag-uusap nilang dalawa ng kan'yang ina noong araw na nagtanong s'ya.

 Miseria but Ria for short, Ria was her nickname. Miseria is the roman name of the Goddess Oizys, The goddess of misery. Her Doctor Elpis Jacob is her psychiatrist. as far as she remember The name Elpis was also from Greek mythology, Elpis was the Spirit of Hope.

Nanatiling nakatayo si miseria habang hinihintay n'yang humarap sa kaniya ang doktor.

"Yup. how are you?" the doctor asked when she slowly turned her chair to face Alesha. Nakangiti n'yang tinitigan ang dalaga na masama ang tingin sa kan'ya.

"I don't like how you smile" She said as she obnoxiously took her sit infront of her doctor who are wearing white long sleeves, Bespectacled, at nakabraid ng pakorona ang buhok. Inipatong n'ya ang dala n'yang bag sa lamesa ng doctor.

 "What do you want to talk about?" Bored n'yang tanong, ngunit bago pa man makasagot ang doctor ay nagsalita na s'yang muli.

"Elpis, you don't have to message early in the morning and tell me what time I needed to be here" She said.

"What's Wrong with that?" Her Doctor Laugh. "I just wanna hype you up before you come here."

Miseria sigh because of her answer, Maybe she really need to get used to it.  Elpis has to remind Ria the time and place their session will be held kahit na sa iisang place lang naman talaga ginaganap ang therapy session nila.

Nag umpisa nang magtanong si Elpis, Miseria haven't change, she was still answering her doctor's questions with joke and sassy comebacks. Napaka haba ng pasensiya ni Elpis sa lahat ng pasiyente n'ya. Hindi s'ya nagpapadala sa lahat ng mga biro at sinasabi ng pasiyente kung hindi relevant sa pinag-uusapan.

Hindi naman maipagkakaila ni Miseria Kung gaano kagaling at kalambot ang doktora n'ya pagdating sa mga sessions. minsan nga ay nag c-chat pa s'ya dito para sabihin ang lahat ng laman ng utak n'ya, mga kalokohan at kung ano-ano pa. Nagrereply parin ito kahit anong oras man n'ya maisipang mag message.

"Okay. so, we are done for today" Sabi ng doktor pagkatapos ng halos isa at kalahating oras nilang session, itinaas ni Elpis hanggang siko ang sleeves ng long sleeves n'ya. "You did well"

"Oh, am I well already? Ibig-sabihin.. Pwede na nating 'tong hindi ituloy?" Natutuwa at nangnining-ning ang matang tugon ni Miseria.

"Nope, hindi. What i mean is, You did great" Sagot nito. Sumimangot ang dalaga marahas na hinablot ang kanyang bag mula sa lamesa bago tumayo ,Tumayo s'ya nang ilang minuto sa harap ng Doctor bago bumuntong hininga.

"Thanks" Saad ni Miseria sa gitna ng buntong hininga at akmang aalis na nang pigiilan s'ya ni Elpis.

"Don't you want to stay kahit sandali? Kakatapos lang ng session, Perhaps you'd like to unwind for a moment before returning home?" Alok ng Doctor. Iginala n'ya ang paningin n'ya. May dalawang sofa sa right side ng kwarto. 

Umiling s'ya at ngumiti.

"No, thank you. maybe some other time." She said as she took a glace to the wall clock. wala  naman s'yang lakad, Napag-desisyonan lang n'yang umuwi ng maaga para makapag-unwind nang s'ya lang mag isa. 

"Okay, then. take care and message me when you get home"

"Yup" Pinihit n'ya ang doorknob at tuluyang lumabas. 

Nang makalabas ito ay pagod na napasaldal sa inuupuang swivel chair si Elpis at tinanggal ang suot na salamin nang mag-vibrate ang Phone n'yang nakapatong sa Lamesa. Ilang minuto lang ang nakalipas she Received a message from Ria.

From: Miseria 

What if I lie down on the railway tracks and wait for it to run over me?

Muli N'yang sinuot ang salamin n'ya at napailing. Sanay na s'yang makatanggap ng mga ganitong message mula kay Ria ngunit sa bawat mensahe nito ay binabagabag siya ng nerbyos. Salamat nalang at marunong s'yang humawak ng mga ganitong kaso dahil kung hindi ay mauuna pa s'yang mawalan ng katinuan.

To: Miseria

What if I'll make you come back here tomorrow, 9:30 am? watcha think?

Alam ni Elpis na ayaw na ayaw ni Miseria ang pumunta sa hospital because the idea of her having therapy is againts her will, kaya iyon ang ginawa n'yang panakot.

Hindi wala pa manding isang minuto ay nag-reply na si Ria.

From: Miseria

Jokeee!! 

Btw i'm home.

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