Without You

Feelings

I wake up from a needed sleep. What Dad said does not change my mind. I want to keep this baby. I know Augustus would want that for him or her. I grab my cellphone and call all the friends I can think of. I call Katelyn first. She picks up on the first ring.

"Hey Sweets, how are you?" exclaims Katelyn, in her British accent.

"Hey, I uhh, need a place to stay for, well.... forever." I reply, awkwardly.

She gasps. "Oh darling, what ever for?!"

I try to put it as lightly as I can. "Well... I'm kinda pregnant"

I don't hear anything for a long time. I am about to hang up when Katelyn finds her words.

"My mother would never allow it, I am very sorry, Hazel.." She softly speaks into the phone. Saying her words carefully.

She hangs up and I am left there. Crying.

I call Isaac next.

"What's up?" He asks.

I get straight to the point. "I'm pregnant with Augustus's baby and i'm about to lose my s**t!"

Isaac yells into the phone. " Are you f***ing serious?!"

"Yep" I reply.

There is a long pause before I speak again. "I need a place to stay.."

"I'll ask my mom" He replies.

After about five minutes, I hear Isaac's voice again.

"Welcome home, Hazel"

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I pack my things and head over to Issac's house. I walk there, not informing my parents. They'll probably freak out. I decided that I will call them later. Isaac's house is only a few blocks away. Issac's mom seems surprisingly okay with me living with them. It's a huge relief though. Dad would never allow me to have a baby in the house.

When I get there, I let myself in. Isaac hears the door open. "Hey Hazel!" I drop my duffel bag on the floor next to the front door. Isaac's house is pretty simple. It's big, but simple. There are paintings of flowers on the walls and a scented candle on every table.

"Let yourself into the guest room." says Isaac's Mom, appearing out from the hallway. I slowly walk up the fancy wooden stairs, carefully stepping down on every single step. This is another thing that sucks about Cancer. I have to drag an oxygen tank up stairs, almost everywhere I go.

The guest room is nice and big. It has smooth hard-wood floor. There's a big circular window at the end of the room. The walls are dark blue. The bed matches the walls with it's dark blue sheets and comforter. I plop down on the bed and lay down. I then realise I forgot my duffel bag. Just as I am about to get up to get it, Isaac enters the room with my bag in his hand. In his other hand is a yellow knitted baby hat.

"Thanks" I say, as he puts the duffel bag on the bed.

Issac smiles as he takes out the hat. "It was mine when I was a baby"

I thank him and put the hat on the nightstand next to the bed.

Isaac sits down next to me. His hand slides gently over mine.

"I love you" He exclaims.

I am speechless after that. I just lost Augustus a month ago. It still hurts. But I can't be mad. I don't know how to feel. I love Issac, but not in that way. At least I don't think so. He means a lot to me.

I turn to him and reach to his face. "I love you too"

That's when our lips touch.