Without You

32 weeks

Time flies so fast when your pregnant. Sounds weird, but it feels like I was in Amsterdam a few days ago. Now Augustus is gone and I'm pregnant with twins. I am due to give birth in ten weeks. Isaac and his new girlfriend, Elly are throwing me a baby shower today. Things are finally settling down. Elly starts hanging up a blue and pink banner while Isaac blows up the balloons.

Despite being completely blind, Isaac is sucessful blowing up the balloons and setting up. He is pretty awesome. Elly is cool too. She is a geek like me, so I like her. The babies are kicking a lot lately. It creeps the hell out of me though. I mean, There are two living beings inside of me. Not just one. Two. Two little monster babies. Man... that's weird. Scary weird.

I greet every guest as they come through the door. My dad, Katelynn, Isaacs mom, A couple of people from support group, and Augustus' parents. Its a small party, but it is just a baby shower. There is really no need for it to be big. We eat cake, talk, play games, and finally open the gifts. My dad got me a bunch of clothes, diapers and bottles. Katelynn gave me pacifiers and blankets, I received a lot of toys, and Augustus' parents got me two beautifully made, wooden cribs with pink bedding for the girl, and blue for my boy.

I burst into tears as I hug them. I am so thankful for my friends and family. I wouldn't be here without them. They have helped me so much. And I know that they will help me raise my twins.

Suddenly, I start to tremble as liquid that I think is water, runs down my leg. My instant thoughts are about my cancer, but that can't be it. I have read about this in the pregnancy booklet. Water running down my leg means that my water broke. Meaning that I am going into labor. Six weeks before they were supposed to.