If I venture into the mountains
Leave behind all I thought precious
Sanctify the beauty of losing oneself
Will I achieve unclouded emotion
Akin to a halcyon late summer evening
Or will my isolation's demons hunt me down
I don't want to think about the light
Nor the echoes of my past still looming
It can turn into a blank void for all I care
I'm just thinking about how unable I am
To truly love and open myself to others
Despite the words' gift I never asked for
I would like to present to you a rose
But you're standing on shores too distant
For me to even begin thinking about
I cannot even climb this mountain ahead of me
And I have no voice to shout out my fears
That I may lose myself to the death of my heart
For who am I to love now - whom to adore
With a gaping hole in this corner of my chest
And the void still crawling its way through my guts
I cannot receive any more warmth from the sun
Rain will soften my flesh over time
And the world will be beautiful again
12/05/2023
