I lived in solitary,
Alone yet not lonely,
Contented with everything I have,
But it's undeniable that I still yearned for love,
I know i can't be who I want,
So being alone is but the only path,
Society, family and friends,
I still need to hide from them, in the end,
I don't have the courage,
I don't have the leverage,
So I must be contented,
To forget what I've always wanted,
To not envy nor yearn,
'To be perfect' I have to learn,
'Don't be an embarrassment'
I have to always lament,
As the perfect child in the family,
I must be unfaulty,
'Nothing can make me brave nor change'
That's what I thought,
But that's not what fate had arranged,
In a magical encounter,
Under the sunny summer,
I met you,
Unexpectedly but true,
For the first time,
I had the urge to commit a crime,
To jump in the deep ocean,
Of dirt and grime,
It's not filthy nor disgusting,
That hooked me, and it's interesting,
I did not feel unclean,
As I decided to taint my perfect curtain,
But, as I became free,
You lock yourself and hid from me,
You knew yourself you are also afraid,
To remove the mask you difficulty cultivate,
In yourself you became enraged
For you can't give up your image,
That became the reason for you to shut me out,
And it broke me apart,
I willingly gave up everything for you,
But you disappeared out of blue,
I can never go back,
But I can't regret anything,
So I must stand back up,
Our ending's not happy,
But I'm still thankful the you helped me break free,
However, I must forget you eternally,
For you're only a part of my story,
A stepping stone for my progress,
Yes, in the end I am still heartless.
