jj maybank - smut and fluff book

p a n i c a t t a c k - FLUFF

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I was pouring some water into a glass at my house, waiting for JJ to come back home. He was off on a small trip to Charleston with John b for 2 days, and he was supposed to come home at around 4:30pm, but it's now 6:30pm. I've been just telling myself they've got caught up by traffic since it's been horrible over there because it's summer and people want to visit there for vacation. But I can't stop thinking of all of the other possibilities that he isn't home yet, the horrible possibilities. I can't stop thinking them, he hasn't texted me in 3 hours and it's worried me a lot. I grabbed the now full glass and started walking it up the stairs to our room, and then it happened. My hands started shaking and my heart started racing, I couldn't move and my breathing was uneven, "No no no no no" I chanted as I fell on the wall and dropped the glass of water, it shattered everywhere and shards cut my feet a little bit. I have really bad anxiety and get a lot of panic attacks, but that didn't mean I am always used to the feeling when I do have a panic attack. I slid down the wall and sat on the steps, running my fingers through my hair and breathing very hard. The thoughts became so loud that I started believing them, "JJ" I muttered as I started gasping for breath, tears streamed down my cheeks and I curled up in a ball, not caring of the small shards poking into my skin. I couldn't feel my hands touch eachother as my skin became ice cold, I was hyperventilating so much to the point I couldn't hear and my vision was blurred and I started blacking out. Shards were still falling down the stairs as the front door open slowly but I couldn't hear it and kept freaking out, my cries were echoing the house as I heard just barely someone call of my name, I kept my head tucked in my knees and continued to cry, I thought I was just hallucinating. I felt the steps under me shake and felt cold hands on my shoulders, I looked up to see who it was and stopped shaking when I realized it was JJ, "Y/N! Are you okay? What happened?" JJ practically yelled as he picked me up and brought me downstairs to our couch,     "I-" I started but couldn't finish it due to my gasps for breath, JJ placed me on the soft cousin slowly and kneeled down infront of me, he watched me struggle to breath and almost cried himself, he hates seeing the people he love get hurt. "JJ- I... I thought you.." I said but stopped myself, I couldn't bear to say it out loud, I wasn't even surprised that this was the result of thinking it, "Tell me baby" JJ encouraged but I shook my head, I squinted my eyes and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling on top of me and kept him there, "Hey, I'm here, I'm here. I'll never leave you princess" JJ said softly, holding me back, I gasped for breath and buried my face in his neck, "Promise?" I asked, I felt JJ smiled on my collar bone as he leaned up and looked into my red eyes, "Promise" he replied, JJ leaned back on my and gave me a small peck on my lips, calming me down a ton, pulling back before it got heated, he sat up and laid down on the other side of the couch, "Come here sweetheart" JJ said as he indicated me to lay on him, I quickly leaned up and crawled over to him and laid on his chest, he grabbed the remote and turned it on a comedy show. JJ wrapped his strong arms around my back and squeezed me softly before relaxing, the last tear fell in his shirt, creating a small little puddle on the fabric, I sniffed my nose and closed me eyes, smiling softly, "I love you so much J" I whispered as JJ ran his fingers through my hair, "I love you so much more  Y/N" JJ replied, softly kissing me on my head as he leaned back on the arm of the couch, giggling a little at the tv. I sighed in relief and fell asleep, knowing that I was know safe back in my lovers arms.