it was weird how we met, never had i seen her before amongst the crowded campus courtyards. it seemed like some sort of higher power had sent her to me, reminding me that life still had some happiness within in. her eyes offered what i had craved fo...
"what the fuck happened last night, i missed a chapter." arabella's voice booms sending waves of pain through my head.
"take the volume down, dude." i kick my shoes off, slowly opening the drawer on my bedside table in search of some sort of pain killer.
"fine, but i need a full tell all." she slides her computer off her lap giving me her full attention.
"i'm taking a few weeks off work. using my emergency 'my life has gone down the drain' time off."
she raises an eyebrow telling me that she needed way more context.
"caught syd in bed with another girl, she told me they were cousins? but they were naked?" she shoots me the look "mhm, yep! she'd missed our date because she fell asleep with this chick. anyway.. she chased me out of the dorm begging and pleading with me or whatever the fuck. i went to the release party, didn't run into you or billie the whole night but ended up with these girls that had a whole pharmacy in their back pocket."
"you didn't take anything did you?"
"i'll get there, be patient. told them i was alright then fucking syd shows up outside threatens to slash my tires- no it was key my car if i didn't talk to her. you'll think this is funny, she had this like break up outfit on, animal fur and everything it was fucking ridiculous. she threw her bitch fit. i went back in, did some drugs, those fucked me right up! then billie found me, thought i was overdosing, took me to the hospital-i'm fine- then took me home and put me to bed. but get this, i woke up with a pillow barrier in between us and then ended up falling back asleep cuddled up with her. so if my life wasn't complicated enough i think i've also landed myself in the most complicated situationship maybe ever!"
"wow!"
"yup! and now i'm going to take a long nap and then maybe disappear off the face of the fucking planet for a while."
"i think you should see this as an opportunity to start over. syd sucks, she has for a really long time... billies ex sucked and did for a really long time. i don't know this seems like some freaky chance given to you by the universe herself."
"the last thing i want right now is to throw myself into a new relationship, bella. i'm pretty shattered." and i was, it felt like my life had just been chewed up and spit back out.
"it's not a relationship, it's a chance to experience something healthy. i'm not telling you to start planning our your future with her i'm saying that you should take a moment to see the good things."
"i'm scared. i don't want to like her."
"so you do like her?"
"yeah.. she's making me feel shit that syd never did. it's scary."
bella sneaks over to my bed wrapping a friendly arm around me "just don't push her out. she would kill me if she knew i told you but she's just as scared as you are."
"she is? what did she say?"
"she doesn't want to throw herself into anything either but, fuck, she's obsessed with you."
for whatever reason it brings some comfort to me, of course she was just as apprehensive as i was but we were both feeling the same intense feeling.
"i'm gonna get some sleep before syd starts harassing me again." i smile over to her.
"good call."
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