Her Little Secret (Prime)

F O U R

HALEEMAH

SARAH STRODE in casually with a bowl of chest nuts and I heard her shuffle around to find a comfortable spot to sit. I was occupying the bed and we've fall out enough to make it uncomfortable to sit too close.

"So," She began as she threw a nut in her mouth to chew. "Shall I look forward to seeing you in another relationship?" I glared hard at her.

"What?"

"Everyone saw that." She stated.
She knows. Haleemah and relationship do not belong in the same sentence. Especially not after the incidence two years ago. Whatever it is anyone saw does not matter.

"Leems darling, Mujahid seems even more spectacular than..."

"Sarah please!" I cut her off not wanting to hear the end of her statement. "I'm not about to listen to you push me to do something else I'll definitely regret again. So, don't get me started."

I heard her shuffle to moved closer. The atmosphere in the room had dropped several degrees and I felt it. That'll always be a sensitive topic to me every single time, and we both know.

"Leems, do you really think I pushed you into it? As far as I know, you've never been someone easy to be pushed into anything." I dropped my eyes to the floor.

"You eventually caved because it was something you wanted deep down in you. It was something you wanted to do, it was something you liked." She paused to let it sink and began again.

"I might've said a few things to help you make a decision, but never say it in that way. Because I didn't push you into anything. It was something you deserved and wanted, he might've disappointed in the end, but you got to experience how heavenly it is to mean something to someone..."

"Or how it is to mean less than a human to anyone!" I shouted heaving. This was a first and she opened her mouth in shock. No matter how angry I got, I was good at putting myself in check.

But when it is about that incidence, I can't seem to control myself .

"Sarah, can you not see? That man ruined every confidence I have in me that I am human and I can be loved."

What everyone saw was just what he wanted everyone to know about.

But I'm sure Sarah must've doubted if I had anything to do with the way he went awol.

"I never want to have anything to do with love anymore." With that, I picked up my scarf and adjusted Mimi to walk the hell out of the room.

"I'll be off to my father's house," I paused. "With Mimi." She was the only reason I was here in the first place.

I could feel her stare behind me but that didn't bother me one bit.

Or does it?

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"So you were that angry?" Sarah asked as she flop on my bed the next morning.

"That you could even nurse Mimi through the night because you didn't want to see my face?" She half-mocked, half-asked.

Mimi busied herself suckling her fingers and I rewarded her with a tickle for looking so cute. "She wasn't a fussy one, else I'd still have to deal with seeing you again." I replied.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I knew how sensitive you are to the topic. But I was only looking out for you."

"But Sarah, you don't need to." I stated. "Not in that way anyway."

"I know Leems." She said simply. I understood she probably doesn't want to deal with it anymore. Not that I wish to be bugged always but it hurts to realize that she gave up.

"Go get ready for work. There's a dinner later and you'll need all your strength, as everyone's favorite anyway." She dismissed and we were both laughing at each other's jokes again.

These days, I find that I cherish the routine of waking up and finding my way to ATV and doing what I know best with or without appreciation from my senior colleagues. Crises seems to bother me less and in fact I cherish these moments like I've never done before.

So I whistled to myself as I walk around getting set for the day.

Distribute the files needing other peoples attention, submit in my resignation letter and putting finishing touches on the things that may likely be taken care of by my replacement.

Before I knew it, the clock clicked 1pm and I dropped the pen I was using. On days I was terribly busy, 1pm was the time I knew I had to take a break.

It was a habit I picked up two years ago and I hate that it was hard to break free of it. Pitiful that I am this pathetic.

"Haleemah!" A voice interrupted my state of thought and as the owner of the voice move closer, I turned my back closing my eyes to even my breathing. My eyes held my deepest tears.

"You didn't say the Salam" I stated before I turned back.

"Assalamu Alaikum." The voice sounded in my ears and I rose up, my body acting on its own before I knew I did.

"Nadeer?"

And once again I was helpless against the odds of what I was.

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