Mine From Day One

Chapter 5

Starting in Maddie's perspective -

I can't. I have to.

What's wrong with me? I feel disgusting.

I run out and go to the bathroom holding my mouth taking my backpack with me.

- Ethan's perspective:

Fuck it. I couldn't hold back anymore.

I had to.

I don't care if this happens.

I've caused something worse.

I run after her.

- Maddie's perspective:

I make it to the bathroom and start puking.

I feel more and it won't come out.

I stick my fingers down and let it out.

Please lord. Get me out of this hell.

- Ethan's perspective:

I see her enter the bathroom.

I listen from the outside just incase.

I hear her gagging.

Why care?

I bust through the door and find the stall she's in.

I see her sticking her fingers down her throat causing her to throw up.

"Woah.. woah woah..!" I go

I get down next to her holding her hair.

I rub her back. "Let it out."

"I don't want to." She says with continuous tears running down her face.

She finally stops and leans against my chest.

My heart was beating so fast I couldn't speak.

I finally was able to get a clear look at her.

She looked awful. Like she hadn't eaten or slept in days.

I calm her down.

"What has been going on?" I ask regretting it as soon as it comes out of my mouth.

"Are you really asking me that right now? Seriously?" She yells back at me.

I look down.

I knew if I told her things would come crashing down.

Either she'd read the note and find out and break my heart and possibly our friendship. (Not like I haven't already) or like me back. (No possibility).

"I know.. but, just.. tell me." I say.

"I don't know." She says with her voice cracking.

She looks down and continues to cry.

I hold her and wipe her tears.

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In 8th grade she got invited to the dance with this kid she supposedly liked.

Of course the kid was in our clique and friends with me.

I was jealous but didn't say anything because of embarrassment.

I had invited this random girl.

I didn't like her though. I just didn't want to look stupid.

But I still decided to dance with the girl.

I saw Maddie had disappeared and the guy was dancing and flirting with a random girl.

I found her in the school bathroom crying.

I didn't ask what had happened and just comforted her.

We went back to the Reese's that night and had chocolate and popcorn.

I always knew how to comfort her then.

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"At first I thought I was sick, but I feel completely fine illness wise. But recently... I've.. I've.." She says stuttering.

"You can say it." I say.

"I just... I keep throwing up when I eat and... and.. I just hate myself. I hate everything about me. I hate my body, my looks, my personality, my everything! That's probably why you've ignored me though, cause I'm fat, ugly, and fucking just disgusting. All of those things are true and I don't blame you." She says while crying hard.

I widen my eyes.

"Why would you ever think that? Mad.. what.. why.. just why would you think that? Are you crazy? I mean.. Mad.. you're crazy I swear." I say back to her

"I know I'm fucking crazy! That why I'm telling you that! I'm just-" She yells.

"No! No! I mean.. why would you ever think that? You're beautiful! You're so fucking beautiful that's why I've been in like fucking love with you for forever!" I say not even knowing the words coming out of my mouth when I first say it.

Her eyes widen and she sits up straight.

I let out a big sigh.

"..Mad, I mean.. can we just go somewhere else?"

"Sure.." She says looking away.

I pick up her bag and hold her hand on the way out of the stall.

I wet a paper towel and wipe her mouth.

"Trust me, you look perfect the way you are.. everything I've said.. there all fibs! I'm an asshole and you can hit me and scream at me as much as you want after I explain it." I say in a hurry.

I lead her out and sneak out an exit door.

"Come on." I whisper.