Mine From Day One

Chapter 6

We walked over to the woods behind our school.

We had found an abandoned tree house not far back in the woods a while ago and redid it, and it's claimed for the clique.

"There's a lot... I need to tell you and.. just, don't be mad." I say with a sigh.

I go through the whole Charlee shinanigan and watch her reactions.

I see tears in her eyes as she watches me tell her the past month.

I get close to her and hold her hands.

"The moral of the story was.. I like you..a bunch, I've liked you since 4th grade and wouldn't give that up for some complete and utter looking and barking bitch. Everything I said I regretted and wish I was put in a better position." I slightly whisper.

I give her a second to process.

She takes her hands away. "You could've said no.."

"I realize that, I was just scared. I was scared to be rejected by someone I love. I didn't want to ruin our friendship or be torn from you and after I realized I had dug a deeper hole. Even now I'm scared that you'll say no. I mean, I would take a bullet for you Maddie. Seriously.. and I mean you're fucking beautiful. Everything you said about yourself is so far from the truth." I say looking deep into her eyes

"I just.. I- I really like you too. Trust me. I've liked you since we were kids. But, what you did.. it... it tore me apart." She says with tears coming out

I grab her cheek.

"And I don't even know who I am anymore.." She says crying harder

I wipe another tear as it rolls down her face.

She starts to cry harder

And harder

And harder.

At this point I'm her tissue as she cries into my chest.

We sit there for about 5 minutes as she cries into my chest.

"Tell me more about what's been going on.." I say.

"Sometimes it's compulsive and sometimes I choose to." She says back.

"But after you left, things got worse....
I can barely get out of bed without wanting to go and puke and check how my stomach looks after."

"God I just I hate it all so much. And you and the clique were my escape. And it felt like I lost both of those things.." Then she continued to cry.

And she never stopped crying.

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6th grade.

She comes running into our house hysterically crying.

"I hate her! I hate her Jill!"

My mom quickly gets up from the couch.

"Shh! What's wrong honey! Oh gosh.. where's your mom!"

"I don't want to see her! I hate her! I HATE HER!"

She continues crying into my mom.

The hardest I had seen her cry until now.

"Ethan!"

I quickly get up worried.

"Stay here and comfort Maddie. I'm going to call her mom and figure out what's wrong. Take her to your room and get her tissues."

I take her to my room and grab tissues.

I hand them to her and she throws them crying harder.

"SHES A FUCKING BITCH!"