Dying.... for you

Chapter 4

Shane pov.
As soon as Kaley called mine and Skye's name together a mini war broke out inside of me.
Part of me was happy that we would be forced to work together. That we would have to communicate again. And perhaps from there we could get back to normal and things could be different.
The other part of me was terrified. What if Skye has been avoiding me. What if us talking brings back those awful memories. I know that every time I look at her I get mini flash backs to those nights. Those weeks of nothing but hoping things would get better. But they never did. Things only got worse from the day we kissed. The day she nearly died, every day she held on a little longer after the gun shot and wolf attack. I can't help but thing about that all the time.
I try to push them to the back of my mind and be strong. I try to make things look okay for Skye's sake. If she sees that I'm doing okay maybe she'll be better.
I can tell she is depressed. The only person I ever see her talk to is Gage. I hang out with him in hopes that he'll talk about her and I will be able to know a little about how she's doing. But it never really works. We always end up doing something else. And I think Gage knows what happened between me and Skye, besides the pure torture. The spark of chemistry we shared. I think that's the main reason he hangs out with me. To remind me that she belongs to him. Not me.
And part of me thinks that's wrong. He doesn't own Skye. Then again neither do I. She has the right to make her own decisions and if she chooses Gage then I can't do a thing to change that.
After our little chat she ran out of the room. I knew I wouldn't be seeing her at school the rest of the day. And I'd have to go the rest of the day knowing that it's all my fault. Like I live everyday thinking everything that has happened up to this point has been my fault. And I don't know how much longer I can live with that.