~Drowning in your love~

~part two~

I feel like I'm floating for a while, but it's safe and I feel like I can relax, I never want to leave this warmth

I suddenly feel like I'm falling, when I stop I jump back into reality, I open my eyes to see Keith standing there, "sorry did I wake you?" He asked, I shake my head, I'm just worried what happened

I should text River and ask her, surely she was with me, I look back at Keith who was looking at me confused, I jumped when I realized that my phone is in my backpack

"You okay?" Keith ask, as I start digging through my dress drawer, "No where is my phone??" I ask worried that I lost it

"Oh I have it here" he reaches in his back pocket and pulls out my phone, "why do you have it" I ask, "I don't remember what happened" I really didn't and I wanted to know why Keith had my phone

I grab my phone from keith, "you don't remember?" Keith asked and one million thoughts are going through my head, did I do something? Did we do something?? Did something happen to River? Is she okay?? "Is Rive okay!?" I asked scared something happened to her

"Huh?" Keith asked confused, I look at him for a moment, "OH you mean the girl your where talking to?" I shake me head yes to his question, "naw she's fine, she went home earlier" that's when it hit me, I died her if she and Sora wanted to come over this weekend

"Okay? But why are you in my room? And why do you have my phone??" I asked Keith, he just surged his shoulders

"I offered to take you to your room, you passed out in the school parking lot" when he said that I jumped off me bed

"And you think putting me on my bed when I've been sitting on the ground is the best way to keep it clean??" I'm not a germ afobic but I like to keep my bed clean, it's the place I sleep at

"Did you want me to change your clothes? I thought a gentleman was not supposed to without permission" I feel my face heat up when he says this, "no" I whisper hoping he didn't hear me because I couldn't help but say that

"What was that? I couldn't hear your whisper" Keith says moving his face closer to mine, my face get even hotter, Keith just smirks

"I said no, now back up" I covered my face with the me hand and push him back with another, Keith laughed a little and backed up, I rub my face trying to get the red to go away

"Okay than, I have To go though, I'll see you around?" He asked, I mean if he was my brothers friend he would be over a lot more, I shook my head but there was a part of me that didn't want him to leave me

"I guess" I say a little quiet, Keith turned around and smiled "don't be so sad, I'll be around, and if you get too bored I put my number in your phone" he said as he opened my bedroom door

I just turn around and fall face first on my bed, what is he doing to me? Why do I feel this way? And why was he so clossseee??? Also what happened in the parking lot?I don't like Keith the way I feel like I should.

Ugh to many questions, I need to shower

I get up and go to my bathroom, I turn on the water, turning it to hot, waiting for it to warm up I go back into me closet and grab a baggy tee shirt, and some boxers, I head back to the bathroom, I take off my clothes and I feel a bit of pain to my knee

I look down and see that I scraped my knee, I'll have to clean that later

I step in the shower, I let the hot water burn my back, the feeling of the hot water hitting my back isn't a pleasant feeling but I don't care, I keep letting it burn my body, I lean my head on the wall

"What is happening to me?, first I feel at home, happy I'm meeting new friends, and even more happy I can be myself with River and Sora, but I feel like I don't deserve that, I feel like I shouldn't have people like them two, and the way Laken said 'I'm not like you' what am I like? Am I disgusting? I like who I am though, what did me mean by that? I wish dad where here he would know the answer to that, I miss him, I really miss him I hope me comes back soon" I ramble on and on to myself, I noticed that I'm crying,