A second chance

chapter 17 | A second chance

*you and Nat are still laying in bed naked and confused you haven't said a word in 10 minutes since what you did together suddenly she looked at you you did the same and you just stared at each other after a minute she smiled gently at you encouraging you to ask questions*
Y/n: is it okay if I call you Nat?
Nat: yeah I've been waiting to hear it come from you anytime I heard you talk I couldn't get your voice out my head
Y/n: wha-
*she cuts you off but not in a mean way*
Nat: wait before we talk about what just happened can you tell me why you argued with me for the past two months? I still can't understand why especially after what happened
*right now you had this feeling like you needed to tell her everything*
Y/n: I guess I was so scared of my feelings I thought getting to know you was a bad idea so I never let you get close enough I also didn't understand what I felt and I didn't want you to know because I didn't think you would feel the same way
Nat: well I do feel the same way and I know the arguing was a cover up it hurt me to yell at you but the way you were acting made it feel genuine was it?
Y/n: no it hurt me two but as I said I thought it was the best option now I realise it's not because I really like you Natasha and to be honest I thought it was cool to meet someone that would understand will you forgive me?
Nat: yeah I forgive you but I'm still angry you know I didn't deserve to be treated that way
Y/n: I know and I'm sorry if there's anything that I can do to make that up please tell me
Nat: all I want is to get to know you better Mandy we can go somewhere this now that we both know the truth
Y/n: it will be hard showing my feelings but I'll try
Nat: thank you now can we can talk about what just happened?
Y/n: yeah what about it?
Nat: I know it was out of anger but maybe after we talk more we can do this again? I think we can work things out but I don't want the rest of the team to know yet if that's okay with you?
Y/n: I don't want anyone to know yet either I've never done this before plus we can keep it intimate that way
Nat: I was thinking since you haven't done this before maybe I can take you out later like a date?
Y/n: yeah I would like that I haven't been aloud to leave but I don't have any nice clothes
Nat: I'll tell fury that I'm taking you to the city with me so your bracelet doesn't trigger anything I know i basically never let you do anything around here so I'll give you more freedom now
*you smile*
Y/n: thanks what happens now?
*she giggles*
Nat: wow you really haven't done this before
*you playfully punch her*
Y/n: shut up I'm being serious
Nat: well I'll get you some of my clothes so Yelena doesn't figure us out right away then we go to the kitchen I guess