Zariya
"Charles" It's only 8 in the morning and he is standing on my fucking doorstep. What is he doing here?
"Hi," he smiled at me. I didn't smile back.
"What is it, Charles?" I asked him while keeping a frown on my face. I noticed that he keeps on playing with the bracelet that is on his right arm, it shows that he is nervous. He always does that when he knew that he did something wrong.
"I-I ah, I saw you the other day and I uh, I just want to uhm see you" I just stare at him
"Isn't it weird that you came here early in the morning just to say that you want to see me?" I'm getting irritated by him. Because why can't he just fucking say what he wants to say because by staring at his face my blood is boiling.
"How are you Zari?" He asked me
"If you just came here to ask me that, then let me tell you the truth. Seeing you after 5 years makes me want to slap you and you acting as if you didn't fucking drop me like a potato makes me want to kill you right now. So please if you don't have anything to say to me, leave my fucking house." His green eyes similar to my daughter look at me with sadness.
"I'm sorry " is the only word that he could say.
"Fuck off, Charles" and I slam my door at his face. He can't even utter the words that he was about to say.
After closing the door my knee feel weak and I just seated on the floor. I didn't even realize that my hands are trembling and I'm already crying because of the mixed emotions that I am feeling right now.
I'm angry at him because he makes me feel so weak. He reminds me of my old self. The girl who was afraid and who was drowning from sadness. I'm angry that him because he can achieve the dreams that we both promised to achieve together. I'm angry at him I don't deserve all of this. I'm angry because my daughter doesn't deserve all this shit. My daughter deserves a father and she can't even experience that. I'm angry at him because even though Lia always tells me that I'm enough, that we were both happy, I know deep inside her she wishes that she can call someone Papa or someone who can play with her whenever I'm not around. And someone who can love and call her princess.
I didn't move. Although I heard Charles' car leaving. I wouldn't even get up if only I didn't realize the time. I need to prepare some breakfast for Lia.
I'm currently fixing the table when I heard Lia's voice.
"Mommy! Up!" she came to my side while extending her arm asking me to carry her.
" Good morning, Mon Amour" and I kissed her cheeks. I let her sit in the chair while I put the cooked pancakes on the table.
"Yes! Pancakes! Pancakes!" I gave her a piece and let her eat. One thing about Lia is that she doesn't like people interrupting her while she's eating. The thing she got from me.
"you need to finish your pancake Mon Amour because after you eat, we are going to visit the bakery okay?" I asked her. the first thing that I did after moving back here is to renovate that bakery. the interior is a little bit old and I need to make a change of it.
"Bakery mommy?" she asked me and looked at me with confusion.
"Yes, Mon Amour. Bakery is where we buy cakes, cookies, and cupcakes" The moment that she hears the word cookies, her face lights up.
"You will sell cookies Mommy?" she asked me and she look excited
"Yes, Mon Amour. Mommy is going to sell some cookies"
"Am I going to sell some cookies to Mommy?" she asked me
"Well if you want to, then why not?" Lia is so excited that she quickly finishes her food.
After I clean the kitchen and wash the dishes. I bathe Lia first and after I dress her up. I just open my phone so that she can wash some Disney movies. I quickly take a bath and after I change we went to that bakery. I decided to name the Bakery "Doux Soleil" meaning Sweet Sunshine. I want it to remind me of Lia, ever since she was born she became a sunshine of mine. And I don't think I would be able to live without her.
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I'm sorry if I won't be able to update daily. I'm a little busy at school. I hope you would be able to enjoy my story and sorry for the grammatical errors. Lovelots❤️
