Love: it's Maddening

~5.

•Jade

I laid in silence on Maud's bed trying to process the things going on in my life bit by bit
Maud left me alone to calm myself,she says I am my own mentor, whenever she says that I used to think it was because she wasn't good at those type of things,then I realized she was right,
But right now I don't think I am ready for this
It's my Parents funeral today, and I haven't been home since the day I found out about the accident,I haven't spoken to Nana,but Uncle Gary reached out so he must have told her something either ways I'll still feel weird going back to that house today
It's currently 7 o'clock in the morning we leave for my hom...house in 5 minutes, we were supposed to leave earlier but I was trembling out of nervousness,fear and...I am not sure what but... I felt a lot of things I couldn't explain
It's hurts more to know that my parents died I have zero knowledge about who they are in this world
I mean sure I know them they are my parents,and I probably know a few things about them but apart from that nothing else,I mean sure they are freakishly filthy rich,which is another pain right up to my chest I have no idea how or where
Don't judge it's not like I think it's not legitimate it's just 5 years ago before we moved here my life was hell I was surrounded by fake people,everyone I wanted to be with me because of my parents,some even go as far as calling me Princess which annoys the hell out of me!!because I sure know that I am no Princess, my parents don't rule a darn kingdom,and I certainly don't have a Prince Charming waiting for me...,not that I care about all those stuff but you get the point
So it annoys me that I get treated like that and I don't even know who my parents are to deserve such fake display of love,They have always been so protective of me,caging me,I was homeschooled my entire life until of course we moved here,but being homeschooled didn't bother me, I had Maud she also insisted to be homeschooled just so we would be together
Yeah I know, you see why I love her to bits
I know I should probably drop the subject of knowing who my parents really were since they are now gone but it bugs me even more now
I sound like a maniac, I know!!
"Jade?!" Maud said in a whisper as though she didn't want to interrupt my thoughts
So I sit up on the bed and looked at her urging her to go on
"It's Niko"
I crease my brows in confusion
"He's here" and I stand up completely
"Here?" I ask
"Yes, he is asking for you"
"Okay,let's go then I haven't seen him in ages"
I say half excited
Actually I should be more excited he is one of the real people in my life, but you can't blame me,I feel so numb right now to feel anything
As we walked into the Sitting Room,
Niko's eyes lit up as he saw me, he stood up as he approached me with a hug and I wholeheartedly accepted it
"Come here little one" he says
" it's gonna be fine" he says rubbing my back
If it was yesterday I would have probably cried but right now...I can't I have come to terms with the truth
They are gone there's nothing more that I can do
"Come let's sit" he says after pulling away and dragging me to the couch to sit and I did
"Where are your parents?"
He asks Maud and she freezes in the spot for a second
Your Parents?!
Niko has never called them that,he thinks of Maud as his cousin too so why is he suddenly being so formal
But Maud apparently ignored it and answered him
"Oh just the usual places,"
She says to him with a simple smile
And he nods as if he didn't understand which is also weird
"Today's the funeral,Nana suggested it will be nice if I go there with you"
"Oh, yes it will be"
"We will catch up just like old times" he says with a slight smile
"Yeah sounds okay" I say as my gaze meets Maud and I sense she is trying to tell me something but she stops and sits beside me
"Digo?" I ask in the secret whack language we created it's basically nonsense we just say things that can be similar to what we actually mean
She nods
"Godi" with a smile
I notice Niko's brows knot with confusion but he shakes it off which is another weird thing cause he is among the few people that know about our language even though he can't understand it
"So are you ready?" He asks
"Not quite,I took my bath already but I wasn't ready to get in the dress just yet"
"Okay it's almost time so go get ready" he says and I nod then look over to Maud she nods too
"We'll go" she says and pulls me upstairs to the room, then slams the door not so loud but... yeah slams the door
Then turn to face me as she grabs my shoulders
"Please tell me I am not the only that noticed how weird that was"
She says looking deep into my eyes
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