One Look

Heather

I met her in kindergarten. She was wearing a cute yellow dress when she came up to me and told me she loved my shoes because she loved sunflowers. Her smile was so pretty and I knew we would be great friends.

"Dre and I broke up for good" I said. I don't know why I told her that. I had planned to tell her later when we sitting in the hall for assembly. The first day of school always starts with assembly, so I asked her if we could get here early and talk before everyone arrives.

She looks at me with her mouth slightly open in shock. I've always liked her lips, everytime she spoke I couldn't help but look at them. I always told her I loved everything about her and that she's absolutely perfect in my eyes but she would always laugh it off.

"Are you just gonna stand there with your mouth open?" I tease. She shakes her head, "I'm just really shocked, let's talk in the hall" she says, I nod.

We walk towards the hall in the almost empty hallways and I feel nervous for some reason. It's a weird feeling but I shake it off.

We sit down at the back in the empty hall and before she says anything I speak up "It was my decision, it wasn't really working out"

I look at her and I'm met with a pair of sympathetic eyes. I had been with Dre since 6th grade, we had broken up several times but always ended up back together. Everyone called us the 'perfect couple's and for a while I believed it.

In the 11th grade, something changed in me, I was no longer obsessed with Dre. I just felt indifferent about him, I thought that feeling would change eventually but it never did. Soon I got tired and that's when I ended things with him.

But when I did, I realised that I didn't only feel this way towards him, I felt this way towards almost everything. I felt empty but Diora makes me feel happy.

Many people wondered why I was friends with her and I could never believe that they would even ask that question. Diora is someone that I aspire to be, she's the one person I look up to. She's authentically herself whilst I put up a front. I'm scared to find out who I am.

I don't tell her any of this, it is the one thing I keep a secret from her. I don't want her to worry, so I just put on a smile.

"What happened?" She asks. I was nervours because I needed her to believe this lie. "I feel as though he has feelings for someone else, I don't know how to explain it but I sense it"

She looks at me confused and then annoyed "really Heather? I thought you said it was for real this time! Dre is clearly crazy for you, everyone knows it" she says defeated.

I start twidiling my thumbs and look away at the stage in front of us. I should have known that was hard to believe, after all Dre is the richest kid in school and he chose to date me, that apparently means he's crazy for me. Because who would want to date a girl from a low income family.

"Are you sure it's not because everyone thinks you're using him?" She asks when I don't answer. I scoff, "that's exactly what he asked too" I turn to her and place my hand on top of hers which was on her lap.

"Please trust me on this" I plead.

She sighs "fine, as long as you're happy" She smiles, "and plus, now I have more time for you" I tease and she blushed. I always found it cute when she got flustered. I always tease her just for that.

"Everyone's going to have a lot to talk about then today" she says, referring to my breakup. I sigh "or for the next month" I say rolling my eyes.

We talk for a while, catching up with what we've missed until we see people starting to flood in.

I feel my heart beating fast, as my anxiety rises. I do not like feeling like everyone's watching me but in this case it's true because most of the people walking in glance at me before whispering something to their friends.

I lean my head against Diora's shoulder and close my eyes and take deep breaths. Diora doesn't say anything which I'm thankful for.

I don't know what I would do without her.