A new mission (Killua x spyxfamily)

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(TW) small mentions of suicidal thoughts. If you feel uncomfortable just skip that part.

Killua POV

"DO YOU NOT KNOW WHAT YOUVE DONE?" Loid shouted at me angrily. He was furious because of the incident. After the police calmed everyone down, the students told them that I was the one that activated the alarm. Let's just say, I got into serious trouble. "ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME?" Loid screamed full of anger. "Loid, calm down!" Yor tried to ease the situation.  I slowly looked up at him with my innocent face. That got him. *Slap*

Yor put her hands in front of her mouth. Tears forming in her eyes. Loid turned around and scoffed. He walked out of the room. Yor ran up to me crying while hugging me. I was too perplex to return the hug. Memories came back. As well as my anxiety. I slipped out of Yors grip and walked to my room silently. Loid...he slapped me...he's just like them...no...I don't want to...

Flashback

"No! Please! I DONT WANT TO KILL!" "Kil, you were born to kill. You are a murderer. And you will always be. Because, that's how Dad and I raised you. You are not worth having friends. Either they will betray you...or you will betray them. You can only rate people based on whether you can kill them or not. You will want to find out if you can kill them. You will end up killing you're friends. You aren't capable of friendship."

Flashback end

No one POV

Killua started to hyperventilate. He couldn't breath. Everything he could hear was that sentence over and over again. You aren't capable of friendship. It wouldn't stop. He knelt on the floor. Tears threaten to spill. He was in a trance. And he wasn't able to get out...

Anya POV

Daddy was angry with Big Brother. The other children saw Killua pressing the alarm button. So when the teachers and the police asked, they told them. Everyone was super angry with Big Brother, because there was no reason. Big Brother said that there were people that were trying to hurt students, but the teachers checked the cameras and the police asked the students and it came out as a lie. Daddy has to pay money to the police now. And I heard him think that this was bad for the mission, because the Dad of Damian would never accept the father of a troublemaker in his house. The teachers were angry as well. Big Brother got a Tonitrus. That's the Lightening bolt thingy that bad students get. I feel so bad for him. It must have been a misunderstanding! Big Brother for sure didn't mean to make a false alarm. He must have had a reason. *Slap* *crying noises* *feet stumping on the floor to Killua room, fast*

What's going on?

Killua POV

I had to get over it. But now I'm starting to miss Gon again. 

It's like my past family. I-I can't. This. They. I thought they were different. Ofc they don't torture me, but in the end they are the same. I feel like I am made fun of. Suddenly my door opened and Anya came to me. She knelt down to me and looked in my eyes, which are glued to the floor. "Big Brother, don't cry! What happened?" She looked at me genuinely concerned.

 "Loid slapped me." Is all I said with an emotionless look on my face. She looked at me shocked. "What? Papa slapped you?!" Anya stood up and looked half angry half unbelieving at me. I need to talk to Bisky about my problems here or else the mission will fail. "...yes...he did..." Killua looked down. His eyes started to sting with tears that wanted to spill. But he wouldn't let them. Never. Not in front of other people. "It's going to be alright, big brother! I promise!" Anya looked determined to help me, but there was no use. I don't know why she likes me so much to share almost all her secrets with me on my first day here, but my mission is to protect her. Which I'll gladly do.