I'd tell you that you're my best friend
The one who's always by my side
The bird who sings morning melodies
Every time I rise and fail to shine
But really you're not, I'm sorry to say
That'd be my medication, my pretty little pills
Orange and white space capsules
Send me whirling through a vortex
Of time and of concentration
Let me see clearly the whole of our galaxy
Cause I can blame the smiles that faded tonight
From the faces of those who were more timid than me
On the ADD
On my "disease" if there's no other word
On my condition if you insist on the term
But honestly you don't because you can't understand
How much of a loon, how terrible an astronaut
That I truly am, and that's okay, I promise,
Why should you understand?
I write all my best poems looking out from my rocket ship
I write in zero gravity with special space ink
But really, listen up, cause tonight was entirely me
And I regret every single word
Be they soft like her voice, be they sweet like her song
Be they lies like my hands, be they bitter like the clouds
That I spoke on down to ground control
On this terminally fine summer evening
Tonight I was Major Tom minus the bravery
And I've lost contact with my crew, my psychiatrist
As I drift into the vast expanse beyond the starry sky
Please know I carry with me in my little red rocket ship
My regrets, as there are many,
And my apologies, even greater in number
They belong to everyone in my painted room
But are more often than not forgotten
They slip down my welcoming drain
Mix in with the hair that I pulled from my head
Mix in with the tears that have fallen since
I plucked myself raw but failed to grow wings
That could fly me away from the mess I've become
Cause it doesn't matter how many books
My gentle mother brings back from the store
It takes an endless number of doctors
To tell me that everything's normal
And even then I don't believe them
Who could ever believe them?
Yes I threw my apologies at everyone with hands
But more often than not no one caught them
And that's sad don't you think, but carry on.
