Sadie's salvation

Chapter 1

Sadie pov

Never ever did I think I would be in this position, As a child I imagined my future to be a lot of things, but escaping my abuser of 5 years with a 5 year old and 4 months pregnant was not one of those things.

"Come on Eli" I say whispering to my 5 year old, I had warned Eli that we would be doing this in the night soon, so he wasn't to startled, I never wanted it to be like this for him, I wanted to give my children the perfect childhood and Eli's has been far from it, he's witnessed things that no child or anybody for that fact should see.

I grab the small bag that I had secretly packed for us, that contains some clothes, little bit of food and water, and the small amount of money that I have been able to pull together in the past three years.

I pick Eli up and he rest his head on my shoulder, but I know he's wide awake, I hold my breath as I quietly open the front door that for once my abuser left unlocked, I barley take one look at the disgusting excuse of a man who is pass out on the couch from the excessive alcohol he's consumed.

A wave of dizziness passes over me, I haven't eaten for the past three days which isn't a choice of mine, a 'punishment' for not moving a napkin as I was told, but there's no way I'm stopping now, I push through until we reach the bus stop, I sit down at the bench and place a hand over my stomach and I feel Eli place his hand over mine.

"It's going to be okay mummy" I rest my head on top of his and hope for this bus to hurry up, I can't drive considering I was groomed and forced to move at 16, I was never given an opportunity.

This was another way the evil bastard controlled me, I couldn't get anywhere that wasn't on foot and I never had money for the bus, I sit there and think how did I even end up in this position, I look back to my naive 16 year old self who thought the 30 year old man actually loved her, maybe if my parents where alive I would of never got into this pickle, but all I know is that this is not my fault.

I blamed myself for years, calling myself stupid, but recently I came to the conclusion that it isn't my fault, it's the evil mans fault and I in no way should blame myself, don't get me wrong years of his abuse has obviously had a Toll on my mental health, but I'm still strong and I won't let him win.

The guilt still consumes me when I think about my best friend Florence, we had been best friends since the beginning of time and then one day I just up and left, didn't even say anything to her, I wasn't aloud I got told we had to leave quick and still to this day the guilt eats me alive, I've just got to pray that she forgives me.

I snap out of my day dream when I see the bright lights of the bus approach us, I jump up "sorry baby" I apologise to Eli as I can tell I startled him.

The bus pulls up in front of us, I place my money down "to the final stop please" the bus driver does a double take at me, I think my black eye, busted lip and bruises on my throat give away that I'm in some kind of trouble, the bus driver just gives me a sympathetic look "go sit down miss, keep your money"

He gives a soft smile to Eli and I give him a thankful look, I wouldn't turn away having the money,I need everything I can get.

I sit down on the bus and place Eli head on my lap and the rest of his body across the chairs, I look down to my bump and my beautiful boy and just smile because no matter what my baby's mean the world to me even if they came from an evil place.

The bus is completely empty, I grab the small broken flip phone that I managed to get and see that it's 4 in the morning, I know this journey is going to be very long and the only plan I have is to get a hotel when I arrive and hope that Florence is where I think she will be and that she will forgive me, and if not forgive me at least take Eli until I can get back on my feet.

Florence has a lovely soul but I'm sure she feel extremely betrayed by me and I wouldn't blame her, but I plan to get a job as soon as I possibly can and if I have to give up Eli until I can properly look after him I will, it will break my heart but his well-being comes first.

Even though the bus is empty I refuse to sleep so for the long journey I stay awake playing with Eli's thick head of hair and looking out of the window.

—————————————————————
Hello everyone❤️

I hope you enjoyed chapter 1 and are ready for more to come, thank you for reading❤️