AMIDST

Chapter 38

JUNE:

MAYRA'S POV:

Months have passed. It is going good. I am already in my second semester. Time really flies by. Soon it will be a year of me being in Delhi. Me and Niall are on friendly terms now. I feel that he is seriously repenting because he is stuck with me since very long. Today, I am going to have my own time- first salon, then shopping and then the bookstore. I leave and my room. After around three hours, I arrive at the bookstore.

I walk through the bookstore stopping at the romance section to find me a novel.

"What the hell, Lily?" I hear a voice. It does not talk me even a second to realise that it is Niall's.

"Why are you even after her, Niall. Find yourself another. I am single right now too,"Lily says.

Her voice is like velvet. No wonder, Niall fell for her so bad. Still her words stabbed my heart.

"I will win her back. You just wait and watch. She will fall for me again. She can not resist me forever."

I peek from behind the books to see Niall's smug smile. That is what he is doing. Playing me again, to later shove it in Lily's face.

"We will see, Niall. I will always be the one you love. When your playing rejects you, come to me and I will never reject you again."

"Just back off already. I want nothing from you. She is....." I could not hear anymore so I leave. I go back to college in tears.

AUGUST:

NIALL'S POV:

I don't understand. We were so good till 2 months back and now evrything has changed again. She won't even spare a glance at me now and the most surprisong is that Rohan even does not know what went wrong. We have completed our first years. She is the second now and me in third. Days pass like this. Finally I decide to talk to her.

"Mayra?" She stops dead in her tracks at my voice. I have left her alone for 2 weeks now but I need answers.

"What?" She snaps.

"What has went wrong, baby?"

"How does it matter what went wrong with your 'plaything', Niall. Go back to your first love."

I am too stunned to reply. My mind reels with the possibilities and I conclude that she was there when I last met Lily at the bookstore. She heard me but if she would have then she would have heard what I told Lily at the end. I mentally smack myself. Mayra did not listen to the whole thing.

"You did not hear it all."

"I heard enough."

"You did not. You did not hear when I told her that I love you and hate her. You are not my plaything and....."

"Stop! I don't want to hear anything," she says and leaves. I go to my room to give my last attempt at having her back else I will accept that we are not meant to be.

MAYRA'S POV:

I shut my mind off. I don't want to hear anything or think anything. When I reach my room, I find a letter on my table. Its a 6 page letter from Niall. I start reading it to give myself a closure from this.

Mayra,

I am a crappy writer but I guess I will still write you this letter to tell you about my life and you, even if you know it all.

I will start from where I can remember. I was always a pretty honour student. I lived to make my parents proud. I was 10 when my parents started ignoring me and Alice. We suddenly got rich because dad had got too much profit in a deal and since then I am made of money. My parents could not handle the change. Dad got involved with a lot of drinking and mom joined clubs. My dad got into depression when he got to know that my mom was cheating onto him. He took to drinking more and started abusing us. When I turned 14, dad expanded his business in India and hence I am here. Due to the bad atmosphere at home, I got pretty violent in general. I used to pick fights at school and win them too. Alice took place of my mom and became my world. I started smoking and drinking at 15 when I got into a bad company. Whole of my high school went in a blur due to this. I scored okay in my senior name and due to dad's good name I got admission here.

Here I was happy with all the attention that I got due to me being good looking and an American. I met Lily at the fresher's party. She accepted me with all my bad habits. But now when I think of her, I realise she was not worthy of me fighting the world for her. My friendship with Zain got ruined and I became a player. The only good thing that came to me with Lily was that I quit smoking and drinking. I started plunging into darkness and when I was almost into it completely, you came like a fresh light. With your amazing ways of pissing me off, your innocence, your smile, your heart and your soul, I fell for you. I fell in love with you the moment I betrayed you. You are not a conquest of mine, you are my life, my soul, my breath, my pain- my everything.

I loved you when I read The fault in our stars, over and over. I loved you when I listened to songs of your choice, I loved you when you were trying to hate me. I loved you ever since. I feel like a lovestruck teenage girl, trying to get her love. But yes, Mayra, I want to have you because I need you. I love it how we are not perfect but together we are. I love it how you manage to challenge me. I love it how you make my heart flutter with just one smile. I love it how you made me forget my past. You did it all without even trying. You are magical, Mayra. I want you to make my life magical.

I really hope you understand that I love you. Only you. Lily is noone to me. Plese trust me when I say I love you. I hope that you forgive me for what I have put you through. But if you don't, I promise you this time I won't trouble you anymore. If I don't get a reply to this letter, I promise you, our paths will never cross again.

Love you always,

Niall

I realised that this time Niall was an open book. I could see him vulnerable this time. This was the heartfelt apology that I had craved for so long. I don't know what to do now. But now I can say that yes, I have fallen for him again. I love Niall Richards.