Miles
I walked over and sat back at my table, where Pav was. We waited for Hobie and chatted a bit - Hobie was talking to Gayatri and whatever her name was... Gwen.
Why did I have to make the conversation so awkward? I completely blew my chances of being friends with that girl - clearly a part of the friend group I was possibly going to be in! And now I'm stuck here trying to figure out how to fix this because I was stupid enough to embarrass myself in front of that girl! She doesn't care. Right? It doesn't matter. I'll try to fix this mess on Monday...
"Miles." A voice echoed.
"Miles!" echoed the voice - loud enough to knock me out of this trance.
"Agh! Pav, sorry, sorry!" I apologise profusely.
"It's alright - why are you staring over at that table?" He questioned, then looked over at the table with Gayatri, Gwen and Hobie.
Just then I realised that I'd been staring at Gwen this entire time. I'd just dug a hole deeper for myself. Pleeeaaaasseeeee don't tell me she saw that.
"Um- it's nothing." I brushed it off, whilst polishing off the lineart of my drawing.
"Whatever you say."
I looked at the drawing, realising it was meshing together to look more like that girl - Gwen. I didn't want this so I grabbed my eraser.
"Hey! Whatcha drawing?" Pav arched across the table and observed the picture. "Is that Gwen? Uh huh. Is that why you were staring at her table?" He asked suspiciously.
"It wasn't supposed to be-" I attempted to explain but was cut off.
"You wanna know stuff about her?" Pav raised his eyebrows at me.
"No, not re-"
"Well first of all, she's a drummer, same band as Hobie, she's really stubborn, she doesn't really know what to do around new people after... something happened. Nobody knows what happened, she just stopped being so social after..." Pav described. Pav basically knows everything about everyone - except, clearly, what happened to Gwen...
"I didn't really need to know but th-" I replied to Pav's description of her.
"Well you're gonna meet her again tomorrow so it's better to know sooner than later!" Pav exclaimed optimistically.
"I feel like I'd rather learn about her on my own pace." I murmured.
Pav ran over, next to Gayatri. He wrapped his arm around her.
Finally I had some peace to myself. Clearing the drawing of its remnants after erasing it, I started scribbling all over the page till it was completely black.
I placed my cheek on the black page, full of mess.
"Um..."
"Miles?"
My vision was blurry.
I blink twice, clearing my vision slightly.
The figure of a girl was towering over me. I had my cheek pressed down on my sketchbook.
Blonde hair, crystal blue eyes.
Is that... Gwen?
My vision cleared completely, and yes. It was Gwen.
Why was she?
What...?
"...Gwen?"
"We're leaving now. You've been asleep for like... an hour." She mumbled.
"Oh... sorry." I excused myself. Why was Gwen the one to tell me that? Why not... like Hobie or something?
Standing up with my sketchbook in hand, I walked over to the group of friends chatting at the door of the café, about to leave.
"Guys, wanna get Margo and we can have a sleepover?" One asked.
"It's a school night?" Another remarked.
"Yeah but like... whatever."
"I'm not gonna be late on my first day." I argued. "My dad would kill me!"
"Yeah... why don't we like, do it on Friday or something? Or we can use our dorms?" Someone else asked.
"Genders can't mix in dorms-" someone argued.
"We can be sneaky about it! Everyone does it, the teachers don't really care..." they argued back.
And then we came to a decision. When we get our dorms, we will have a sleepover. I get my dorm when the secretary assigns me one. I hope I'm with my friends.
I walked home with everyone else. It was 9.30A.M and it became quite cold since earlier. Gwen was chatting with Gayatri. Hobie, Pav and I were messing around. It began to rain so I tried hiding my sketchbook from getting soaked.
Then, Hobie saw my sketchbook.
"Stop, you're gonna soak the pages!" I yelled, but he was already flipping the pages.
"Why're there pages that 'ave nothing on 'em but scribbles?" Began Hobie. "You tryna hide sum?" I could barely understand his heavy English accent.
"Um, no." I defended myself.
"Oh yes, I remember that!" Pav exclaimed. Nonononono. "He was drawing Gwen. I was with him while he was doing it!" Sometimes I think Pav's mouth runs faster than his thoughts. Out of my peripheral vision I see Gwen's eyes darting towards us three.
"Drawing me? What are you talking about?" The voice, belonging to Gwen asked.
"I wasn't drawing her! I mean I wasn't supposed to but-" I defended.
Pavitr whispered something to Hobie and raised his eyebrows, smiling.
I grabbed my sketchbook and ran off, in pure embarrassment, as they all just watched. The rain shattered against the path, my hood fluttering back in the wind. Finally I reached my house.
"Where were you? I didn't see you this morning." said my dad suspiciously, pausing his cleaning of the dishes.
"The café." I replied, storming into my room. My dad peered at me confused then continued washing a plate.
I settled myself down on my bed, sketchbook laying beside me. There's definitely no recovering any form of bond I had with that girl, even if I had none.
The sun rays beamed through my curtains, right in my eyes.
My phone, on my dresser, lit up. I picked it up.
A notification from Pavitr appeared on the screen.
I rolled my eyes and opened it.
Pav
-I'm sorry man. sometimes i
get carried away with what
i say. it's not an excuse tho.
-I'm sorry man :((
Seen
I didn't know what to say to his text, I tapped my phone case continuously, thinking. I felt really bad for storming off like that.
Then I remembered I would be spending the last few months of school with all of them.
I realised I had to make amends with them. I just didn't know how to fix things with Gwen. I humiliated myself in front of her so many times in one day and I don't even know her. Should I deal with the consequences...?
it's okay pav
