𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 ❤︎

1, insucure

"jules cmon, we got to be at the party in twenty minutes." matt knocks on my door "just a second!" I answer as i get lost in my mind. im standing Infront of the mirror with my pink dress on, perfect pastel pink. the dress fit perfectly in the dressing from but now that I'm about to go out it doesn't fit.

i turn around to see if my stomach fat is poking out and it is, I have a huge bump which makes me look insanely fat. i do not have the hourglass body iris has, iris is so perfect and pretty. I don't understand why matt hasn't broken up with me for her, I'm so ugly. "julia, can I come in?" matt leans against the door "okay." I sigh as I walk slowly to the door.

when I open the door not even two seconds later matt hugs me, "what's this for?" i smile and hug him back. "your perfect." he lets go of me, holding onto the sides of my shoulders. i look down at my feet, not sure what to say. "hey, look at me." he places his hand under my chin, slowly lifting my head up to look at his.

"mhm." i mumble as I into his deep blue eyes "i heard you sigh, multiple times. I could tell you were looking in the mirror." he says "im sorry im not iris." I sigh again,crossing my arms and looking away. "hey, hey. I don't like iris, I like you, you julia. matter of fact, I love you." he smiles at me. "matt do you really mean that?" i unfold my arms, placing my hand on his shoulder.

he looks at me, like he loves me. "I've loved you for nineteen years. I've loved you ever since our mom's introduced us to eachother, ever since you would help me with my anxiety when it got bad. ever since forever." he pulls me into a hug, I hug back. the hug lasts a while, this is the first time matt has ever said 'i love you' to anyone but his family.

"matt I don't know if i want to go out tonight." I say while we're still hugging. "your beautiful, jules." he pulls away, looking me in the eyes. "I just don't want to go out in this- I don't feel like myself." i frown. "alright, do you want to wear sweatpants and a t-shirt then go to a movie instead?" he walks closer towards me. "I'd love that." my arms wrap around his neck.

he wraps his hands around my waist and suddenly the urge to kiss him enters my body. "I love you, matt." i mumble our faces become inches apart "I love you too-" he's interupted by me placing my lips on his. his hands trails up my back and my hands move to the side of his face. his hands move up to my face and he cups my face with his hands as he pulls away.

"get dressed into something comfortable, we will go watch a movie." he smiles softly "yep, got it." I walk over to my closet and pull out my favourite t-shirt matt gave me on our first date and comfy grey sweatpants. "you look beautiful in anything." he says, sitting on the chair across from where I'm standing.

I simply smile at him, "thank you, matt.". his eyes fixate on me, "are you staring?" I chuckle as I walk towards him. "uhh- no.." he moves back even though he's in a seat, clearly scared of me. he then stands up, he interlocks our fingers together and we both look down.

when I look back up I see his ocean blue eyes looking at me, why is he looking at me like that? "is there something on my face? oh sorry." I back away from him, walking to my bathroom. "there was nothing on your face, jules." he shrieks "you are beautiful, don't you see that!" he tries to unlock the door.

I look at myself in the mirror, disgusted with what I see. "matt stop saying that." i say, trying not to cry. "but you are-" I interupt him "stop matt- please stop." i start to breathe heavy. "hold up, what's going on julia?" he tries to unlock the door again.

choked sobs leave my body as I grip onto the side of the bath "im getting the spare keys!" he shouts, I'm to busy crying that I can't speak. i don't like him seeing me cry. I hear the key go into the door and suddenly I see matt in the doorway with his ruffled out hair and a shocked look on his face.

"c'mere, lia." he walks towards me with open arms. he crouches down on his knees and wraps his arms around me. "I love you, matt." i say in between sobs. "I love to too, jules. please don't push me away, I can clearly see your hurting." he pulls away from the hug, brushing his thumb against the side of my face.

I smile at him, tears stained on my face. "you look tired, so you want to sleep instead?we can do something next week." i smiles softly. "yeah, is like that." he holds out his hand for me to grab. he helps me up and we walk out of the bathroom.

I lay down on my bed and he lays behind me. his arm is around my waist and he's leaning against me softly. I'm on my side looking at my phone, pretty girls on my fyp. "don't watch them." he grabs my phone, closing the app. "let's just sleep, turn to face me." he asks "okay." I grin as I turn to face him.

his eyes look down at mine and I lay my head on his chest. he softly pats my head as he mumbles something, I don't know what.

authors note,
no one gave me this idea but the next chapter idea is from theyluvvcelesteeee !!