𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 ❤︎

8, school bathrooms

TIMESKIP! 2 WEEKS LATER, FRIDAY:
( they are seniors in highschool for this chapter!)

it's a Friday morning and i feel awful. my eyes are barely open and my body feels numb. last night was the worst night of my life. matt is already at school, he left at 6am to get there early and see his brothers since he doesn't see them often because he's always with me.

i get out of bed and walk over to my bathroom, i close the door behind me and turn on the light. the light is a pale, tint white which isn't heavy on my eyes. i rubbed my eyes multiple times and they are now starting to stay open. i am not having a shower today because my wrists are sore, that doesn't need any explaining.

as i look at myself in the mirror i start to pick apart my body, not literally, just in my head. look how fat my cheeks are. how does matt even like me? my lips are so chapped. i then get a stool and stand up on it so i can see my stomach in the mirror. i pull up my shirt a little and grab my stomach tightly, revealing all the fat.

my eyes fill with tears. i never thought i was this emotional. i quickly realese my shirt so it covers my stomach and i don't cry from disgust. i grab my toothbrush from the mirror cupboard and apply toothpaste before wetting the brush under water. i begin to brush my teeth.

after i brush my teeth i put my hair into a low pony tail. i put chapstick on my chapped lips and then walk out of my bathroom.

TIMESKIP! SAME DAY, FRIDAY
8:35AM

im wearing green cargo pants and a black crop top which only shows a little bit of stomach.if anyone says anything about my stomach today im going to lose it. i walk downstairs with my bag on my back. i grab my phone off the kitchen counter and stare at the brown paper bag full of food matt made me for school before he left.

i leave the brown paper bag there and walk out the door. while im walking to school my friend iris comes and walks next to me. "what's up." she says as she matches her walking with mine. "not much, ive been good lately." i lie. "i like these new wrist covers, what are they for?" iris stops walking and holds Julia's arm. "oh, my wrists just get cold sometimes and i hate being cold." i lie again.

we make it to school, suprisingly. matt is standing near his car with his brothers nick and chris. i was always close to chris, for a personal reason but i never really talked to nick. me and iris walk up to nick matt and chris.

"hey lia." matt greets me with a warm hug. "hey." i look up at him, admiring his eyes. "do you wanna hang out third period?" matt asks, looking down at me with a soft look on his face. "yeah, sure." i reply. the bell rings so me, matt, iris, chris, nick and madi all begin to walk into school to go to our classes.

i have class with chris and madi first period. they have always been super close. i walk into the classroom and sit near the front, only because i want to attempt to learn in this class since im already failing.

"today class, were going to be watching the movie 'bridge to terabithia.' " the teacher, mr riley says. everyone seems to have a positive reaction since we only have to watch a movie and not anything else.

halfway through the movie i start to not pay attention. i zone out multiple times as i think of last night. i catch myself staring down at my exposed wrists. i quickly pull my sleeves to cover them up. i fidget with my hands as i watch the movie.

TIMESKIP! SAME DAY, THIRD PERIOD.

i walk out of class and it's time to hang out with matt. as im walking down the halls trying to find him someone goes infront of me. "can you please move?" i ask, trying to see the person's face. but i cant, the person is to tall.

"look at you, you little emo sl-t. go slit your wrists." a voice which sounds like a boy says. he pulls up my sleeves and reveals my fresh cut wrists from last night to everyone. as i tear up i see matt slowly approaching the situation. i pull down my sleeves and run with my bag to the nearest bathroom.

i start to cry, at first it's quiet sobs which could be mistaken for laughing. then it got to an extent were my eyes would be red and so would my face. my lips would be quivering and i would have choked sobs. as all this is happening i hear someone burst into the girls bathrooms. "julia!? where the fuck are you!?" matt yells, worry in his voice.

after i don't answer matt begins to look under all the bathroom stalls until he sees me. he unlocks the door with a safety pin and goes inside. "hey, what's wrong?" his voice softens. he gets close to me and comforts me. he wraps his arms around me and rests his head on my head.

he seems like he wants to protect me from whatever im going through. i don't answer but instead pull up my sleeves. now he knows about what happened last night and what the situation in the hallway was. "oh, honey.." his voice softens and he hugs me tighter.

matt starts to tear up, which i didn't expect him to do. he puts his hand underneath my chin. he then kisses my lips softly before grabbing both my hands and holding them in his. "im sorry." i whisper. "don't be. that guy is an asshole and will be sorted out. the thing is.. why didn't you come to me last night? i would've helped.." matt says softly, tears in his voice.

"i was scared that you would reject me. i know it's stupid since we've been dating for a while and you've never reacted this way." i sigh.

"just, come to me next time.. okay?" matt holds me in his arms. "okay, i will. i promise i will." i nod.

authors note
how are y'all??
did yous enjoy this chapter?
drink water
stay safe if your in aus like i am
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