𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 ❤︎

22, new years + period (2)

i lay down on my stomach on the towel, my eyes closed and the sun beaming onto my back. it feels amazing. everything was peaceful. the sound of waves crashing to shore and sea gulls in the sky. a few minutes later i feel someone lay down next to me on the towel, i open my eyes and see matt.

"hey." he mumbles, his wet hair touching my forehead. "hi." i reply, my eyes scanning him. "how are you feeling?" he asks, placing his cold hand on my lower back. i shiver a little. "good, the sun helps." i say to him, trying to keep my eyes open. the sun is too bright so my eyes keep squinting. "you look so pretty right now." matt says, his hand now rubbing my back which sends shivers down my spine.

i smile a little, my dimples forming on my face. he giggles a little before sitting up and turning onto his back. he sees chris come out of the water. chris goes over to the small freezer we have next to our lot of stuff. he grabs a cold can of pepsi. he then walks over to me and matt. the condensation from the drink drips onto my back. i shiver. "hey chris." matt says, looking up at chris, also squinting his eyes.

"hey love birds." chris sits down on the sand. "how could you sit on the sand with your wet body.." matt makes a weird sound, feeling uncomfortable. chris shrugs and opens his drink before taking a few sips. we look into the ocean and see nick talking to a girl, we are confused. we soon realise its madi. "MADIIIII!!!!" chris yells and waves his hands.

madi and nick get out of the water and walk up to the group. they sit down next to chris and look at me and matt. "hey love birds." nick says in a flirty tone. "is that our new nickname?" matt scoffs, sitting up fully, on the towel next to me. im still laying down.  i sit up once i see everyone sitting up. i lean my head on matts shoulder.

nick grabs a drink of water for him and madi before sitting back down. "so, is madi coming to the fireworks with us?" i ask. "yesssssss, obvi." nick says, looking at madi. madi nods, she doesnt seem as talkitive as she usually is. "you okay, mads?" chris asks, leaning forward and looking at her. "yeah." she replies.

everyone goes quiet for a few seconds. suddenly, chris grabs his speaker. "liaaaa, hes gonna play a bad song." matt says to me, putting his hand in mine. "its okay, you can pick the next song. cant he chris?" i look at chris, giving him a glare. "yeah, fine. you can, bernard." chris says in an annoyed tone, he is playing around, knowing matt hates people calling him by his middle name.

matt hides his face in my shoulder before moving his way inbetween my legs, his back resting against my chest. i wrap my arms around his stomach and hold his hands. matt continues to squint his eyes, his sight going straight into the sun. "can i have your sunglasses madi?" matt asks, madi hands her sunglasses to him. "thank youuuu." matt says cutely.

i cant help but feel abit of jealously. i dont know why. i love madi, she is an amazing friend to me. i feel bad for being jealous. i go quiet while chris blasts a song on his speaker. i keep my arms around matts stomach as he leans on me. "i love you." he whispers to me, i dont say anything back. he had said i love you two times to me today and i haven't said it back.

he probably thinks i dont love him or something. soon enough chris's song choice finishes and matt moves out of my grip and back next to me instead. he doesn't make any eye contact with me. "can you play...um, just any song by mac miller." matt says. chris nods and plays a song. i continue sitting up, my legs up, arms resting on my knees.

i look down and see that blood is leaking onto the towel. i start to overthink and worry. i get up, put my bag over it before grabbing something out of my bag and running off of the beach. they all look at me like im crazy. i feel super embarrassed. i make it to the bathrooms. i enter the stall and pull down my board shorts and purple swim bottoms, revealing blood everywhere.

my breathing becomes shaky. i begin to bite my nails and slap myself in the head. my legs begin bouncing and i have no idea what to do. i start to cry, i feel like a failure and a pathetic loser for crying over something like this. after a few moments someone enters the bathroom, at first i thought it was matt, but it wasn't.

"are you alright julia?" a familiar voice asks, its chris. i sniffle and take a deep breath. "im fine." i say. chris sighs and puts his hand on the door. "do you need anything or anyone? i can get matt-" i interrupt chris, "no dont get matt. can you get madi? and get madi to bring me my bag please!" i ask, my voice shaky.

chris then responds. "sure, ill go get her." chris leaves the bathroom to go get madi. three minutes later i hear two trails of footsteps come into the bathroom, its not just madi. "hey, julia. i hope its okay that i brang matt.. he said he was worried. can we come in?" madi says in a quiet tone, seeming to care for me. i sigh before saying something. "okay, come in." i say, leaning forward slightly as i sit on the toilet to unlock the door.

madi and matt enter. matt locks the door behind them. "are you alright, babe?" matt asks. i shake my head. madi gives me my bag. i look for a pair of underwear, i find a pair. matt and madi close their eyes and turn away. i take off the bloody pair of swim bottoms and put a pair of underwear on with a pad in it. i stand up and pull up the board shorts.

"thank you." i say to madi, madi just nods before leaving the stall, leaving me and matt alone. "im sorry." i say. "sorry for what?" he replies. "not saying 'i love you' back."  i respond to his question. he goes quiet. "its okay if your not ready to say it. im
not forcing you to say it. i just hope you feel it too." he holds my hands.

authours note
bro this needs three chapters 😭😭
vote n comment !!
give me some ideas ❤️