𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕧𝕖

twelve

I smile, before asking Dad If I could speak with him by ourselves, he nodded, leaving the room. "Jake, why did you come here? I asked, a bit too excited. "I heard what happened, well, i didn't know for sure, Jake said, by my side. his eyes go on my neck. 

"did they... he begins, annoyance in his voice. "no, i chuckled."I never want to be one of them, Jake." Jacob sighs of relief. "I really... was worried. I wish i had been there..." "Jake, None of fhis is your fault, I had been stupid, I assured him, he comes closer, so i weakly ruffle his now short dark hair.

My neck still ached. "those bloodsuckers, don't you hang out with them? He asks, more angrily. I sigh, I understood completely where he came from, in fact, i would listen. "Bloodsuckers, good name, I laughed weakly. He softly smiles. I continue, "I don't like them much, Jacob. I promise. I just... I don't know anymore."

"(Name), Who did this? Jake asked. "Old friend of mine who had been turned, I blurted. "We can help you, He offers. "Jake, I whisper, if i knew anything for sure, it would be my feelings were complicated. I knew, i liked Bella, but, also Jacob? 

I could like many people at once, I didn't like the cullens. Not since my emotions had been manipulated. How could i approach that? "(Name), I need to get this off of my chest, Jacob said.   I nodded, reminding him i was listening. 

"I'm in love with you." 

I was surprised, kind of. When you know, you know. I knew.  I replied, "I love you too, Jacob." He leans in, so do I. The kiss was soft, passionate. I was glad this had been my first kiss. I pull back, panting.

He smiles."I should go." I nod, leaving him be. Dad comes back in. "You seem happy, He said. I smile."i guess i am, when will i be discharged?" "tomorrow, depending when you get better, he replied.

"Okay, I say. I suddenly hear my door swing open. My eyes widen. "(mother's name)? I say, in surprise. She smile."Hi, honey. I know, has been a while-" "Leave, I hissed. "How did you even know i was here? Dad, did you tell her?"

He shook his head. (mother's name) chuckled, coming close, but i slapped her hand from me. how did she know? "I heard from sources, She responded. "I missed you so much. Chicago would be much more healthy for you." 

Dad stood up. "Mind if we speak privately?" (mother's name) nodded, following him outside the room. I scoffed, how could she even be here? especially since she didn't seem to care for me. I could hear them argue.

"May i remind you she is my daughter, (father's name).  you cannot just not let me see her!"

"she doesn't want to see you!"

"oh please, she is still upset, i know she loves me."

delusional bitch, i thought. i came here for a reason. i close my eyes, getting some rest. My life would be peaceful now. Because, Owen might be taken care of, hopefully. though, i know he is still alive.

"does she? ask her yourself, dad said. "Fine, (Mother's Name) huffed, going back inside, Dad behind her. I could tell, he moved on from her. Like she moved on from him. "Honey, you love me still don't you? She asked.

I laughed her face."I stopped loving you years ago." Her expression changed, and she began crying, but left. I didn't feel bad for her. She had her boyfriend, he would keep her company. She did want to be childfree, now she was.

I knew i wouldn't regret cutting her off,  she never was a good Mom. Her priorities came first. even when i was younger. I sigh, not from sadness, or pity but of relief. Because i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I couldn't wait to go home. 

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I eventually did go home, however, when i did, i realized... Owen was still out there. However, i knew he would keep his distance, for now. Because he wasn't very stupid. Not very intelligent, though.

Dad made sure i was well, since he was working late. I would be fine, I was nearing 18, so, i could be on my own. He left, and I was cooking dinner, when Alice comes in, I jump, "Jesus, how did you come in?"

Her expression was cold, I wondered how she would respond. "Did you kiss him? She asks. I blink in confusion. "What?" "I saw you, kissing him, She exploited. Now, I knew what she was saying. I nodded. "(Name), You should not be associating with them!"

I was still cooking when I chuckled. "Wolves you mean?" "They're not good company! Alice insisted. "No, your kind isn't good company, I replied, finishing cooking. Alice only frowns, grabbing my wrist. "We're only looking out for-" 

"No, you're doing this for your own benefit, I do believe you like me, but, I think you're obsessed, I accuse. Her silence gives me my answer and confirmation i needed.  I only thought so because of how many red flags were in front of me.

 She leaves, thankfully. Hopefully now, they will no longer be interested in me. Giving up because i showed no interest. 

or so i thought.  

I should have known the cullens don't give up. I mean, i kind of did suspect they wouldn't stop. still, i was happier with Jacob, shouldn't they respect that? we weren't official, but still. Then i remembered.

Bella. 

I still had feelings for her, but, my feelings for Jacob, were stronger? I couldn't describe how i felt properly. I sigh, finishing my dinner, before going in my room. Maybe even see some news, sometimes i would write on my computer, if i was bored, and i like writing in general. 

i look in my room, seeing my crafts my mother and i once did when i was nine. we were close, once, sure, she was never a good mom, but she was still my mother.

not anymore.

she was once my mother.