DARLING, YOU'RE HIGH AGAIN.

CH 22: Promise

Perhaps Felix let his panic take over him that he actually manage to fit himself and Sam inside just one stall in the men's bathroom. Wiping off their sweat that they gain from the heat and their running, panting rapidly whilst puffing out warm breathes. "I fucking messed up, shit." Felix whispered supposedly only to himself but the other man did not fail to hear him.

"Felix, it wasn't any your fault, it was all his. He started the fight. Just who is that man anyway?" Sam lean his head on the stall's door, gaze darted on the other man, scrutinizing him.

Felix decided to sit on the toilet, his mouth shut and quiet, without any drops of desire to answer the question he doesn't really like hearing.

Felix feared that Sam would ask the same question again and again, he was lucky enough to avoid it for the first time but now his brain is empty to think of any excuses that wouldn't sound too fake. He doesn't want the crimson haired man to know that he was supposed to let François fuck him or anything because he bought him for millions, he was ashamed to even just think about it.

"It's a long story." Felix let out his troubled breathes that he was holding for too long now, gasping for air but there's nothing coming inside his throat. Remembering François's bleeding nose and beaten face under his eyelids, guilt is eating Felix inside slowly painful.

"No matter how long it is, i'm willing to listen, tell me all of it Felix." Sam urge the man, he's more than eager to know. Felix's life is a complete mystery that he suffer under frustration when he know nothing about him at all. All he knows is that Felix liked cigarette very much and he will let him drug him no matter how many times.

"No, No. You don't have to know, really it doesn't matter, instead lets just focus on escaping right now. Our lives are at risk we just don't know it yet-" Felix couldn't proceed when another voice shuts his.

"Why? Why are you refusing to answer the question? I wanted to know, is it really that difficult?"

The crimson haired mans voice rang in Felix's ear repeatedly like a song he doesn't even wish to hear, it's messing up his brain in an ugly way. Felix doesn't want to talk or even think about it, and he hates the feeling that he should, he hates the feeling of being obligated to speak when he doesn't want to.

"It's just... i'm-i don't like to bring up this matter to anyone, i don't like it. I hope you understand, let's just forget about it and move on." Felix truly hoped the man will understand him but it seems like he didn't just yet.

"Felix, just tell me the entirety of it, you couldn't hide secrets to everyone forever. It's not really that hard, i'm right here, you could trust me. I promise you."

Felix bite his tongue rather hard, hands covering his ear, he feel like if he hear another sound his ear would bleed with so much blood it would be dripping into the floor. Felix look straight into the ground, but he did not dare to steal a look at the crimson haired mans shoes, afraid that he'll catch him. Felix's heart beat is faster than normal, more cold sweat forming into his skin.

"Please, i just don't want to talk about it-"

Sam scoffs, grabbing both sides of Felix's cheeks, making the man look at him against his will. "Look at me Felix when you refuse to answer my question. Alright, i'm not going to force you anymore, instead i'll ask you this. Why the fuck are you so weak?"

Sam's eyes are like strong fire ready to scorch anything and Felix's eyes were flammable, catching the flame completely, both pupils burning to each other at the moment.

"What?" Felix couldn't help but ask again, despite hearing the other man's words as clear as day he hoped to the gods that he heard wrong.

"Why are you so weak? Darling, i've never seen someone as fragile and perilous as you. Just what have the world been doing to you?" The crimson haired man put more strength while he hold the man's face, invading his privacy completely when he lean his face towards Felix's.

Storms were happening inside Felix's chest, the warm skin wrapped on his face sending unknown comfort. Tears on the edge of his eyes, meaning to escape any second.

I want him to kiss me again. Felix thought inside his vague mind.

Felix stopped thinking for a second, letting his soul speak for himself.
"My life is fucked up, my life is so fucked up that it felt pathetic, i don't know what to do with it anymore. You're right, i'm weak, and i couldn't do anything. I wanted it to end, i want all of this to stop right away, i want to taste freedom again, i want my life back. So please, i'm pleading, can you... can you save me?"

Felix feel like he was dancing with the devil itself when he had said those sin stained words, he was asking to be saved when he grew tired of saving himself. But it felt wrong.

Sam stared deep into the man, seeing his own reflection within Felix's dark pupils, a smile forming in his beautiful face when the man finally asked for his help.

"I will darling, i promise you."

Felix feel happy. Smiling to his promise.

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After what felt like eternity both of the man finally exited the bathroom stall quietly. They figured out that the yacht long boarded after they feel it not moving anymore.

"How will we escape?"

"Darling, i have an idea."

...

Felix stood in extreme disbelief after the crimson haired man pulled out a body of a waiter with a food trolley. The waiter is of course knocked unconscious by Sam himself.

"What are you going to do with him?" Felix asked, he still couldn't believe that this man really beat up an innocent waiter.

"Um... Uh, maybe, i'll dress up as a waiter and you're going to hide under the food trolley. It's big enough so i'm sure you'll fit just fine."

"What?"