I regret everything....
Seeing y/n like this broke me, she changed. She became quiet...all because of me
I want to approach her but everytime i try she avoids me months has passed and the situation is still the same.
I approached y/n, this time making sure she can't escape. My teacher partnered me up with her, so it's gonna be easy
When i got to her room, it was already a mess, her books scattered on the floor. Bed is not made, even her journal was open. Y/n had some school service to do so she told me to wait til she's done
I decided to tidy up her room until i touched her journal "a few pages won't hurt, right?" i tell myself and flip through the pages. My heart sank
"dear diary, the girl i love said something that made me wanna swallow my dignity. She thinks I'm a freak too just like everyone else, i don't get why she was mad at me for something i didn't do. I still love her with every bit of my heart. Mom always tells me that i shouldn't be giving my heart out for someone who'll crush it with no hesitation...i tried to listen. I wanted to listen, but she...Wednesday Addams. I don't know what she has but there's this feeling that i felt. This love that i found in her is unexplainable. She hurted me so much but i still love her. I don't regret anything but i do hope that one day she realise that not everyone wants to make things bad for her. I want her to realise that there are people out there who loves her genuinely, people like me...she doesn't know and I'll keep it that way"
I tear up as i read the page, the door was flung open and y/n looked at me in alot of emotions. Shock, sadness, fear
"is this all true?" i ask standing up "why did you read it" her voice breaks in each word "y/n..." i hesitated. I've caused this girl too much pain
"I'm...I'm sorry" i blurted out "i wish i could turn back time and protect you to the things that hurts you. I wish i could turn back time and protect you from my cruel self, i regretted everything y/n...I'm sorry i hurted you, the times you avoided me made me realise...you were always there to support me, annoy me with your goofy jokes, acompany me in my not so good saddest day. I realised...i actually fell for you, i know it's too late for me to e-" she cuts me off with a hug
"weds...have you forgotten the page you red? No matter what happens i still love you"she saysand gives me a genuine smile "how can you be like this when i caused you alot of pain?"i ask as tears stream down my cheeks
"i don't know, all i feel is that i love you. But you still need to make it up for those words you said"she says "I'll do anything!"i say looking into her ocean blue eyes "listen to your heart" she says and takes her book "now let's study"
