Sub-Consciousness || KNJ✓

Chapter-1.

A flower was dead, it's fragrance was gone, it was crumbled down on the ground unmoved, completely dead.

Dead.

Imagine how it is to be dead within even when you're breathing outside. No one knows what that smile holds, what those eyes shows and what the mind thinks. Is it always this torturing to let your emotions die? And the next thing you know, it comes crumbled down to you, killing another part of you as well.

A beautiful smile can hide the tears when no one is aware. That sweet voice while talking to someone can change into loud heart breaking sobs when no one's around and that heart and soul can be torn completely when they fall into their own claws of darkness.

People have every right to be who they are, even an evil have the right to be evil. No one is born as monsters, no one is born perfect, no one can judge anyone just base on what they show.

What about you? Have you smiled today? Have you enjoyed a little today? Have you laughed atleast a little?

Don't know, but proud of you to still survive in this world.

It's fine, you are fighting and you're strong, you tried, it's okay, it will be okay.

Time will change what you're going through.

It's fine, we're proud of you.

Proud of you, it's fine, you tried....

These words. She just wanted to listen atleast one of these but it never came. She just waited and waited until she was left alone, abandoned from the one's she thought cared for her, from the one's she thought loved her and would atleast choose her once, just once.

Just once.

If that once would make a difference then she would have been better atleast a little. She would have the strength to go through it if it was just for once.

She would have made it again.

The people whom she loved all her life, cared for them, did everything possible to let them know that she is there for them but in return what they did?

Betrayed her by not giving her a chance.

Family. Her family. She thought they loved her. But how wrong she was to believe that. How wrong she was to think such a thing all those years.

They not only failed her love towards them but they also failed to love her back. From her own family members.

Her parents.

If they gave birth to her, they successfully killed her too. If they raised her, they have lost her in the process too.

She just asked for another chance, a chance where she can prove herself and her worth again.

But they turned their back on her only because she failed once.

Here she was sitting on the bleachers, staring at a distance on the huge empty ground which was blur, not because of her tears but the heavy downpour which had already drenched her completely from head to toe. Yet she sat there unmoved not bothered at all.

Why would she when everything inside her was numb already?

Her heart, her mind, her muscles and bones, her viens, her blood and every cell, numb, she felt numb, dead.

Eyes fixed on a point while lips chapped and pale, skin having become cold completely while her few strands of hair sticking onto her forehead, the hood covering her head completely, shielding it but no matter what it can't shield her heart, nothing can.

Nothing in her mind, it felt nothing.

The rain just gushed down her without any mercy as if it knew to what she was going through, to what misery she was pushed into. To what tortured her. Everything was just a mere whisper in her ears, only the harsh rain pouring down and hitting the surface was clear to her ears.

Just like how the droplets shattered against the seats, her heart was crumbled and throwed out without any mercy. It will never be the same, will it?

No. Broken heart and broken mirror can never give you the same reflection like it did before.

It just becomes more dangerous to touch then.

She didn't wanted to survive anymore, not wanted to breath the air, thinking it's not worth for her. That she didn't deserved to do so with such a phase she was pushed in.

Just a blink from those tired eyes, she averted her eyes around the empty soaked ground, smiling a little.

Empty, just like me...

She thought, smile disappearing and going back into a thin line, face cold and expressionless.

Her eyes then roamed around the bleachers which she knew was empty all along, however not when she was proved wrong, catching a figure sitting there on the other end, with an umbrella covering the head even though that person have worn a rain coat down.

She remembers clearly that no one was here before, only her. But now seeing a person seated there in the rain too made her frown a little, wondering to what was the reason that person was here?

Were they betrayed too? Were they done with their life too?

As much as she thought of a possibility, she noticed the figure standing up and turning towards her direction letting her know that it was a guy, now walking towards where she was seated.

As his figure came closer and his face got visible in the heavy rain, the guy stopped right besides her looking down at her with his surprisingly soft caring eyes, forwarding the umbrella to shield her head from the rain.

"Let's go back, it's getting dark already" he spoke smiling at her, voice tender compared to his huge body which was under that rain coat. She stared at him for awhile thinking nothing in particular while he just holded onto the umbrella for her.

"I'm not going back in that house, I don't want to" she spoke after, looking ahead with her hands slowly hugging herself from the cold breeze hitting her drenched face. Her voice clearly raspy and wavering, also showing that she had been crying before.

She felt him taking a seat besides her, still holding the umbrella for her, "They will taunt, scold, shout, even hit, but you have to bear it, just for now" he informed straightly, a fact which she can't deny because he wasn't giving her false talks, speaking what the reality will be.

She had no where to go too, just that home of hers where even though she wasn't willing to go, she have to. It's so funny that our family automatically expects us to come back, them knowing that we have nowhere to go too.

"How long?" She asked, voice cracking as her eyes stinged from the fresh tears. She heard him sigh besides her.

"There's no answer for that" he again replied a truth which no one can predict alone.

"Come on, get up and let's go" he stood up again, making sure to not take the umbrella once, protecting her head totally. She exhaled softly before standing up, body shivering clearly having been out in the rain for so long.

They both walked out of there in silence, her hugging herself from the cold while the guy walked side by side not speaking anything further.

They eventually reached at her house which she never wanted to see again, never wanted to enter in again to see their faces but she was helpless, once again going with the cruelty of reality.

She entered the building pulling her hood down, turning around to see the guy only to find no one present, the rain still pouring down heavily, road still busy but no sigh of him nor the umbrella.

No Him.

----TBC----