Marry. Ride. Love.

Where are you going

*Isabella*

"You look really beautiful tonight," I winced as I heard Pecco so close to me.

We hadn't spoken since his confession. Yes, somehow we had spoken, but without words, because I was afraid of what would happen if we spoke.

"Thank you.", I smiled.

"I'm sorry I ambushed you like that the other night," he stood next to me now, his shoulder touching mine. It was that gentleness that made him so different from Tino "And it seems he got his act together, huh?".

I didn't answer him. Basically, it was none of Pecco's business whether Tino and I had slept with each other now. Tino hadn't exactly been discreet about the fact that he was planning to. And I had to admit, after what had happened last night, I really only wanted to go home with him.

"It's ok Pecco. I mean you and me. We worked it out and...", I put in, but he took my hand and turned me to face him.

"I don't want it just cleared up, you know? I want to make sure we're still friends," his voice sounded nervous.

"Pecco, what do you want me to say? It makes me nervous that you're looking at me like that because I'm afraid to do something that might give you hope and...I don't want to hurt you."

"I know you don't. And I admit it feels shitty to see you and Vale like this, but it would be worse for me if I didn't see you at all. You're way too important to me."

"I do care about you," I whispered, letting him pull me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck.

I didn't want to lose him as my friend after all. I didn't want him to leave. I didn't want it to be weird. I didn't want it to hurt him.

"I don't want to lose you." he whispered "I can't stand it." he pulled me even closer to him "I love you way too much for that."

"No. Please don't say that.", I pushed myself out of the embrace "Please.".

"It's like that though. And you know it.", his face changed within a second.

"Pecco, it's not fair..."

"The only thing that's not fair is that he only has to snap his fingers once and you jump! He ignores you for weeks and then what, he can have you right now? Bella, I begged you! I've done everything for you and all he has to do is want it and he gets you? That's not fair!"

"Stop it," I pleaded.

"Why? Because you can't handle the truth?", I could see how hurt he was and shit I was sorry after all. After all, I wished things were different too.

But what could I do about my feelings?

Noting.

And neither could he.

"I love you, Bella! Has he told you that too?" he grabbed my hand a little roughly "I bet he hasn't. Dresses you up though, so you look like a motorcycle he loved. You're a fetish for him, don't you realize? Not anymore. And I lay the world at your feet and you just don't get it!".

I tried to free my hand from his grip "Maybe it's better if we don't see each other for a while.", I gulped, but he didn't let go of my hand.

"Why? Because you're afraid he won't fuck you if he sees us together? If you needed it so bad, all you had to do was say it, I would have-"

"Stop it." my breath quickened "I'm just trying to salvage what's left of our friendship, but when you're like this, it's hard as hell for me."

"What, just because I don't handle you with kid gloves? I thought that's what you were into. The way he just talked to you and...", I pulled my hand away from him with a little more force.