July 29,2019
Hey Diary,
I didn't know what I wrote earlier. I was too overwhelmed. I had so much within me, I still have and that's why, I am here again, for the second time in a day.
Today has been the most terrifying day of my life. I received a call from the hospital saying my reports came in early, and the doctor wanted to see me urgently. My heart sank as I rushed to the dreaded place I've always despised - the hospital.
I hate the smell of hospital, it's atmosphere, the anxiety that linger in the air, all of it makes me light headed.
My nerves were on edge.
Sitting in front of the doctor, I couldn't stop my hands from shaking as anxiety gripped me. My heart was struggling to beat, knowing that something was wrong. And then, the doctor's words hit me like a ton of bricks,stopping my world for a moment. I have a serious coronary heart disease, and my heart is not in good condition. The doctor said it's incurable, and the only option is a heart transplant.
In that moment, I held onto a glimmer of hope when the doctor mentioned the possibility of a transplant. He said coronary artery disease can not be cured, but the survival chances are quite high if a healthy lifestyle is maintained. He said he need to run some more tests to analyse the actual condition of my heart.
If.... If the damage is already done....the only option is a heart transplant. He didn't sound so sure but his words gave me the hope to hold on to. I can't bear to think otherwise. I've only just started living a happy life with Taehyung, and I refuse to give up just yet. I want to live with him for many more years, creating beautiful memories together.
But I'm scared, Diary. I have to wait for the reports for three to four days. It feels like an eternity, not knowing what's going to happen. I'm hoping and praying that everything will be alright,that even if things go wrong, a heart transplant is an option for me.
For now, I've decided to keep this secret from Taehyung. I don't want to worry him until I have more information. Taehyung has been so caring and loving, and I don't want to burden him with this uncertainty. But it's getting harder to hide it from him, to put on a brave face when my heart is crumbling inside.
I don't know what the future holds, Diary. I'm scared, nervous, and lost. I can't bear to think about the possibility of leaving Taehyung behind. He's my world, my everything, and I want to be with him for as long as possible.
I will hold onto hope, Diary, that the tests will bring good news. I will pray for a miracle, for a chance to keep living and loving Taehyung. But right now, I'm broken and scared. I need strength to face whatever comes next, and I hope I can find it within me.
With a heavy heart,
Jungkook
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