" The Metanoia," 🤍 [JJK // FF°▪︎°]

part 19

(Jungkook pov )

" how can I be  stupid  ,yes this was my plan to make her uncomfortable just because she insulted me and I decided to do this act but what actually happened to me ? Like kiss was not included in my plan at all , I was just planning to make her uncomfortable by my slight touches, istg I didn't mean to kiss her at all . It's just happened unexpectedly , i myself is amazed that what i did to her , back then as soon as I hugged her ,a sudden wave of heat smack me but believe me when I putted my head on her shoulder , i lost myself in her ,I lost my sense , I had no attention of kissing her whatsoever that roamed in my mind before but as soon as she stare me with her innocent eyes , I lost I completely lost my temper and sudden urge to kiss this innocent child built in me and I started to kiss her ,  It felt like heaven to me , she was so pure , her skin was something else which I haven't tasted yet  . That was a cotton like soft that I just lost my shit , but when she pushed me and pleads me to stop , at that time i was still lost in her eyes , i tried to resist this feeling but the urge to kiss  on her trembling lips again captivated in me and again I lost I slowly leaned near her face this time closing my eyes to feel her trembling lips on mine that was making me weak very weak , I kept my lips on hers and she stopped screaming  , I know she's so scared and then I got my senses back when I saw her tears streaming  eyes . I aparted away and then tried to act as cold as i always shows to her but the thing is she was making me weak and I definitely know it was lust , ...

" before I could do something more bad to her . I lectured her to avoid the sensation occurring in me and immediately went to my room to avoid this mess ...  currently I'm in my home with yuna she's watching movie while I'm in my own world of thoughts,  her head is laying on my shoulder and I didn't bother either until I  heard the knock on door and I know she's her that little child to whom I harrassed so badly today , I'm feeling guilty so guilty that I don't even want to face her , and i already confirmed it that kissing her was not into my plan at all , it's just happened I even idk how .

" yuna ... I uttered slowly still looking at the ringing door ...

" yes jungkook ... she utterd still her head was on my shoulder ...

" I harr- ... I was in between to tell her whole thing but bell ringed again making her head lift up and turned towards door ...

" wait jungkook I think yn is here ... I nod but she suddenly got panicked,  I raised my brows  at her amzed that what happened to her suddenly ...

" stupid I've donned your shirt  . What will she think of us if she sees me in your shirt ... she replied in whisper tone  whilst being annoyed at me idk what happened to her suddenly..

" so what ? We didn't did anything wrong . You spilled coffee on yourself and I gave you my shirt to wear so what's wrong? and I think there is nothing to concern about this yuna ... I replied to make her understand but she literally smacked my head with her hand and I was hella confused...

" ah you wouldn't be able to understand  girls mind how I even can expect something like this  from you . so you better shut off now and wait till  I come back when I changed don't open the door until I came myself understand mr jeon stupid jungkook ... I nodded as I chuckled at her. She went to my  room , she's really something else . * sighs*

" mintues passed and yuna came out of my room while fully dressed up in her previous attire,  she hurriedly went to the door and opened it ...

( yn pov)

" I'm standing here from last 10 minutes knocking again and again but mr jeon still didn't opened the door I forgot to carry spare keys with me . That was in my room as i went out with mina and yoongi , I literally don't wanna face him at now whatever he did to me its making me mad , emotional , weak , ashamed and many more feelings that I can't describe in words it's like someone snatched my pride from me , I know he is my husband but his intentions were literally devilish he was trying to hurt me , he was trying to hurt every inch of my mind and he successfully did , I know he hates me but he can stoop this low I couldn't imagine this all , is he like this to all his students who are girls? Is he harrass them like he did to me ? Or is this only for  me ? Why he's so done with me ? Am I too bad to get atleast some respect cause love is apart from my fate I know I wouldn't get one in this life fr . As I have promised him that I will not show my face to him in his class so I decided to talk about this matter with yoongi , I told him that I want to change my class section and wanted to shift in his class , there are so many students of my main major so there are two class which is handled by two professors of same major .