Switchblades and Vending Machines (Shizuo X Izaya)

My decision.

(I hope this chapter isn't too repetitive guys ^.^ tell me what you think in the comments~~~>)
(Izaya's POV)
I decided. I'd pretend I didn't hear him. Right now that was best unless I wanted to end up sayin' something stupid. I had to figure out how I should react before I blow it. Honestly, I want to kiss him more than anything but I know that wouldn't go over too well. I continued to pretend to sleep. Inhaling and exhaling deeply. He sighed. Then he looked around the room as if there might be someone watching but there was no one. He shifted his body and became even closer than before. I felt his hair tickle my forehead and I knew he was going to kiss me again but this time I couldn't contain myself and I fluttered my eyelids open. He looked surprised before quickly backing up as his face turn end red. He then rammed his head into mine quickly. I heard a crack before the whole world went black.
(Shizuo's POV)
That damn Izaya! He had to wake up, didn't he?! Well he got his punishment! I laughed. "What did you think I was going to do Izaya?" I then saw his head bleeding profusely. Oh. My. God. Is he dead? I just sat there staring at him a minute before hastily unbuttoning my shirt and holding it to his head. It was no use. It just kept running. And running. And running. "Izaya! No! No! Stoopp!" I yelled at him. "You're not allowed to die dammit! Wake up! Open your eyes! IIIII-ZAAAAAAAAYYYYY-YYYAAAAA!!!" I yelled at him while shaking him until I saw his head begin to flop an d i held it up.
"What's going on?" Shinra came in. "Oh no..." He then stole Izaya from me quickly. I got up an d held his arm like a child who's favorite teddy was getting taken away. I looked at Shinra's with wide eyes. He glared at me an d I knew how serious it was. What have I done? What have I done?
After he took Izaya away I fell to the floor. I began crying like a child. Crying like I never cried before. I knew I must've killed him. I would do anything, anything to see him grin that devil's grin again, run away from me, tease me, get me fired, just open his eyes! But... Never again.... Never again. I had finally done it.
(Shinra's POV)
I was rushing Izaya into surgery as quickly as possible. Shizuo was being extremely confusing. Yesterday he desperately wanted him to live and yet today he went and almost killed him again. He just barely has a pulse and I feared that he would most certainly have brain damage. I know how violent these two usually are but this... This is a whole other level of violence. What's has gotten into them?
I operated as quickly as possible after calling in some of my doctor friends to help me out. The operation took 27 hours and the whole time we were listening to crashing sounds of Shizuo running around the house. He was likely trying to find which room we were in but I hoped to God he didn't.
Surely, he didn't until the surgery was over. He was hyperventilating. "......Shinra....." He said before running to the side of the bed. "Is he.....dead?" He asked while gripping the side. I shook my head while raking hits hands off.
"However, I'm afraid that's if you stay here, he may not stay that way---" I began before his eyes softened and he looked down and the man who lay there almost dead. I knew he had no desire to kill him. I backed up a little. "Do you promise not to kill him..?" I asked. He nodded "Then I'll leave you alone...." I told him while going out and closing the door. I'd still watch from the camera just in case.
(Shizuo's POV)
I hate myself. How could I have? Who am I kidding? Of course I would. If he didn't dodge all of the time he'd be long dead by now. I felt my eyes fill up again. Damn these tears. "I...I... I'm so...sorry Izaya!" I told the dead man as my voice cracked. The tears were making my voice sound weird. That was a stupid thing to do. A thing that only an evil person would do. But I swear, I didn't mean to kill him.... Not this time. I just panicked..... I didn't want to hear his smug comments.... But God did I want to hear them now! I grabbed his hand as gently as possible and it was an awful luke-warm.
"I'm so, so...." I got choked up. I knew it was no use. He didn't hear me. He couldn't hear me. It was over.
(It's not actually over he just thinks it is... But I warn, major issues with the next few chapters x.x Please continue reading though! I promise a happy end!)