May I love you,may I be your shield,when no one can be found,may I lay you down

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I wake up with a racing heart and tears on my face. And a warm hand on my cheek.
"Y/n, you had a bad dream again," Viktor mumbles, looking down at me in concern. My heartbeat is still a long way from calming down, but that's the way it always is. Four years have passed since the great battle of Hogwarts - and seven years since Cedric's death. Ever since then I've been plagued by these consuming nightmares. It's usually the same dream - when Mr Diggory mourned his son's death with that cry of pain. And every time I still feel my heart tear apart. I rushed to Mr Diggory and Ced at the time, I just couldn't accept it, I was sure it was just a misunderstanding. I shook him, yelled at him, but he never woke up. He lay there in the grass, lifeless, motionless. His heart stopped beating, he wasn't breathing, he didn't open his eyes. Never again. At that moment I couldn't realize that he would never smile at me or hug me again, but my subconscious had already figured it all out. Suddenly I couldn't breathe, couldn't move, I just cried out my pain and suffering to the world. I didn't even notice the tears that broke out of me in disgust. This pain filled me, almost bursting me. Eventually Viktor pulled me up and I let it pass without a will, empty except for the pain. He just hugged me tightly, stroking my head, my back, whispering soothing words that never got through to me. But the pain got a little better, it got a little duller.
Seven years. For the last seven years, the pain has gotten a little bit smaller every day, but it will never completely go away. Cedric's death has left a gaping hole in my heart and life and nothing and no one will ever be able to fully fill it. This hole is also getting smaller, but there will always be a tiny hole. I'm fine during the day, we have a nice life, month by month I'm getting better at dealing with all of this. But the pain often comes back at night. I look at Viktor into his dark, warm eyes and calm down.
He's been my mainstay for years. He kept me from falling apart, gave me strength when there was nothing left of me but a pile of misery. He kisses me affectionately on the forehead. "The Dreams are getting fewer," he whispers, giving me a small smile. I nod imperceptibly. "I just wish they were gone already." "One day they will be," he murmurs confidently, kissing me softly. "You will see. And until then you have me.” "Hopefully after that too," I say, laughing nervously and he grins.
"Of course." "Thank you," I breathe with new tears in my eyes, probably for the millionth time in recent years. "For what?" he asks, smiling. "For staying," I whisper, closing my eyes. "For supporting me even though it wasn't easy. Or is. And that you give me the greatest love in the world.”His gaze softens and he kisses me, slowly and incredibly lovingly. "How could I go? How could I, especially now, go? You are my world, Y/n.” As if he had been waiting for his cue, Nikolai comes into the room, his teddy bear pressed tightly to his small chest, really sleepy. Our son. I quickly wipe the tears from my face and sit up. "What are you doing here?" "Couldn't sleep." Nikolai mumbles sleepily. "And I heard you talk." "Go back to sleep, Niko." Viktor says lovingly. "Otherwise you'll sleep through half the day again tomorrow." Our son's eyes, which he definitely inherited from his father, are getting big and round. He's currently working on an incredible dog look. "Do you want to sleep with us?" asks Viktor now smiling and Nikolai nods vigorously. I move a little and pat the gap between Viktor and me. "Then come here." His little legs carry him to the bed fairly quickly and he struggles to climb onto the bed, but he manages. He's a Krum, of course he can do it. Only now do I look at the alarm clock. It's 3:27 a.m. at night. All of London is still asleep, only we are awake again. Nikolai finally lies between Viktor and me with his teddy bear and falls asleep before we can see. Viktor puts his arms around both of us. He's a wonderful husband, a wonderful father, he's amazing. And he loves me, he belongs to me. I wouldn't have survived without him.

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