Maybe This Time

First Glance of First Day of School

Author: No dialogue, its only Katrina's thoughts and feelings like a diary.

My first day as a high school student what do I feel? Excited? Nervous? I don't really know because all I wanna know right now is where would I go? and where is my rooms for my classes.

Hello Im Katrina Im 14 years old living in Canada for 5 years. Its hard to get along with people especially when the accent is not the same as them or it sounded weird or funny to them. In other words, I didn't make any friends that lasted till today maybe because Im not fun to be around or maybe Im just out of their league. Will I try to get a long or have friends? probably Will they last? probably not.

As I enter the gymnasium, there is a lot of students from different elementary schools thats transitioning to grade 9. Students with their parents, teachers that are at the side watching as the gymnasium gets full with students and parents. School council with their jersey uniform along with the school president. Lastly, the vice principal and the vice principal the ones that start the welcome ceremony.

Teacher start calling their last name and their room number and the students will start to line up and they go. As they start calling, Im just waiting for my home room teacher to come up and call us. Im just looking at the students that goes down the stair bench. students that are taking to each other because most of them have known each other since elementary compare to me just quiet looking to the people that once became my friends in elementary school.

First to see the classroom of my homeroom teacher many computers around, family picture, he is a fan of the football team and quite unorganized desk although it might be organized for him. He just discuss the school policy that is written in our personal agenda. He gave us our personal lock and taught us how to used it. Although I didn't get it first but another classmate taught me how to do it and I did it. After that, we went to our lockers and start using it and putting our stuff away and using the lock for our lockers. Others have a chance to look for their classrooms for their subjects and the others can go home and I decided to go home and worry about my classes tomorrow.

The Next Day The Official First Day of High School.

Student home room for school fees then after that we go to our first subject and we start to do the prayer and the Canada anthem.

We just start to listen as the teachers discuss about the curriculum and the due dates of the assignment and other details.

Some of my classes have Filipino students in them but i don't know them only when they get to introduce themselves that i'll know.

In math class as I look around the class on the left corner at the front I don't know but the guy catches my attention. He's aura, the height, the look, mostly everything. I don't know why I cant take my eyes out and avoid looking at him. Since then, I think he's the reason why I like going to math even though Im not good with it.

Pov: Hindi ko man paborito ang math class, and math is not my greatest strenght in academica pero dahil sa kanya naging excited ako sa subject na di ko naman gusto.

We met again in choir he is in base and Im in soprano but later on they changed my position to alto. Sometimes if the choir meeting is on lunch time, nagkakatagpo kami tapos sabay kami papasok ganun pero hindi naman palagi. In the present time you can say Im the OA he is the non-chalant.

Before I forgot he's name is Kovie same age just a month old. He's tall, smart, when he laughs i find it cute or shocking because he rarely do it. 

Meron siyang ka MU pangalan naman Ash, matalino, maputi, ash blonde, average height, sexy, non-chalant. Sige saktan ko pa sarili ko! Ano naman mapapala ko dun laki ng lamang nun sa akin. Ako morena, chubby, maliit, average lang ang intelligence, OA, brown eyes, black lips. Putcha! Laki talaga ng difference walang panama!

Tapos yabang ko pa magpa message sa bestfriend kong si Yanie kung may gusto sa akin. Ang ending di ko siya gusto kase ang ingay niya saka may gusto na akong iba at yun ay si Ash. (Shet! Ilang years ng nakakalipas naalaala ko pa din! Pain pighati rawr!)

And dito na nagsimula ang pagiging cold niya sa akin nung high school. Yung kikibuin ka lang kase may kailangan o kakausapin ka lang kase wala ng choice. In other words, option. Di ba kami na nagpauso non bago pa yun nauso sa gen z.

Nag try akong iadd siya sa facebook pero sa lahat ng kaklase o kabatch namin ako lang yata di niya friend. Di ba ang sakit hanggang sa dulo nasa friend request ka lang.

Malungkot ako kapag nakikita ko silang magkasama at kung maari ayaw ko na lang tignan o iiwasan ko na lang kase may halo na din na selos. Theme song dito dapat That should be me by JB bagay na bagay sa akin.

Pero pag nakikihangout siya sa mga Pilipino most of the time nandun ako kaya nagiging halata na din na gusto ko siya! Shet! Masyado ko naman pinupush sarili ko sa taong di naman ako gusto. Pero gusto ko siya; I like him di ko alam hindi naman ito first time na mag ka crush ako pero bakit sa kanya bakit ang hirap kalimutan? bakit ang hirap iwasan? bakit gusto ko siya makita? 

Hindi naman ako ganito dati. Bakit ngayun nahihirapan ako? Tinamaan na ba ako ni cupido? pero bakit sa maling tao pa sa taong hindi rin naman ako magugustuhan.