losing my mind

Ep.9

*Tay's Pov*
I turn over in bed to see Jackies back turned towards me. "fuck" i whisper, not tryna to wake ha i get up carefully out my bed and head over to my desk where my phone was sitting. i check my phone n sure enough my fkn messages went through. My dumbass jus fucked this bitch thinking Nomi ain't want nun to do wit me, i jus fucked up so bad. i walk back into my room and shake jackie.
"yo you gotta go" i say as she opens her eyes.
"boy huh? what time is it?" she says sitting up squinting.
"it's 6:20. now get up" i say grabbing her clothes and throwing them near her.
"For what? u couldn't wait til later? i'm tired asfk" she says sounding mad asl.
"look this was a mistake and i'm sorry but u got go." i say as she gets up walking to the door.
"fuck u nigga bye." she says walking out.
"wtf i jus do." i call my gc and tell them everything

*Nomis pov*

i roll over in bed and feel jae grab my waist making sure i don't go anywhere
"u good twin?" he mutters still half sleep
"yeah i'm fine boo." i say turning over and burying my face into his chest "u so warm"
"mhm, go to sleep mimi." he says grabbing my ass. i doze off and when i wake up i check my phone and see 3 messages from an unknown number  and 4 messages from tay.

what the actual fuck. i texted tay cus of all people? her?

This nigga got me fucked up but oh well he'll realize his mistake when he itching and burning like usher and peaches had a baby and named him tay. Jae still sleep. what nicki said!! zzz
since he was still sleep i laid on him and kissed his neck

"Time to wake up" i whisper in his ear then continuing to kiss his neck.
"gimme like 10 mo minutes" he says still sleeping.
"u gotta leave at 1:30 and it's boutta be 11 bae." i whisper still layin on him.
"10 minutes" he mutters. ik sum to wake him up real quick .
I slide down under the covers pulling his pants down and revealing his morning wood.
"ion wanna fuck up our friendship but one more time shouldn't hurt" i think before flicking my tongue all around his dick it's standing on its own wtf. I bob my head up and down and hear him let out a loud ass moan.
"M-mimi damn i'm up" he says taking my hair in his hand and moving my head fast. I place my hand on it while i'm going up and down. he let out a moan before picking my head up and nutting on my face.
"shi u got a nigga up now Mimi." he says breathing hard and heavy
"i know i do" i say straddling him and leaning in for a kiss while grinding my waist on him.
"don't start sum u gon try to run from again" he says grabbing my waist and going back in to kiss me.
"you know what i mean" he says slipping his hand in my pants and moving his fingers around.
Use ur imagination for the rest.

I brush my teeth and take my shower before heading out with jae

*Time jump*

Ik you're probably wondering why i don't get with jae but he travels a lot and idk how i feel about my nigga not being near me, in other states, wit i other bitches, on stage letting bitches touch him. i can't
Anyways he takes me home because he needed to go to the airport. i wanted to spend the whole day with him but oh well.
"make sure seeing me is the first thing u do a when u get back." i say hugging him outside my door.
"you kno i will. just give me 3 weeks i'll be back i promise." he says rubbing my back
I start tearing up "i'm gon miss u, i hate not seeing u for so long i miss when we used to see eachother everyday and chill." i say as i wipe tears from my face
"don't cry. you know this rapping shit been a dream of mine since i was a youngin, this jus come wit it. when i come back we'll have another bestie date and another night to ourselves." he says wiping my tears and planting a kiss on my forehead.
" i love you Jae jae" I say calming down
"i love you too mimi" he says rocking side to side with me
"I love u more" i say sighing and letting him walk to his car
i unlock the door to my house and go to my room. Guess wtf i see..

"Tay how did u get in here" I ask scared as i see Tay sitting at the edge of my bed facing my door.
"Don't hide keys under flowerpots Nozomi." he says getting up walking towards me. "can we please talk?" ion kno what to do without u rn" he says
i push past him and i put my phone on the charger. "talk" i say spinning my chair to look at him.
"i know what i did was stupid but what u did was even stupider. Fucking the nigga u jus told me not to worry about, really nomi? that's low asf." he says sitting on my bed
"well, when they go low, i go lowerr" i say laughing but he still got a straight face
"tough crowd.." "but look, i didn't plan on fucking him it was just a turn of events. He was offended that he couldn't do something nice for me without u being jealous for no reason so he said let's do some shi tht gives u a reason to be jealous. so that's what we did." "he took me back to his house and had fucked.that's that." i say.
"see Zomi. that's why i fucked jackie. you don't care about nobody but ur damn self." he says getting mad
"ion care about no one but myself cus i don't wanna sit around sad cs the nigga i wanted butthurt and mad over sum so little to the point he don't even wanna talk to me no more. ian finna let u disrespect me in my own home you can get the fuck out my house and block my number i say standing up and opening the door.
"so now u tryna kick me out" he says laughing "ian going nowhere we ain't done talking " he says closing the door and standing over me.
"what tf else is there to talk about Tayvion?" i asked
"What we finna do. cus ian finna leave u alone no time soon he says pulling me by the waist to my bed. he sat down and pulled me onto his lap and starts kissing my neck .
"tay i'm not finna play wit u." i say letting out a small moan.  he grabs my face and starts kissing my lips. i push him away.
"don't kiss me clam mouth" i say
"Zomi bro chill." he said rolling his eyes
"nah u putting yo mouth on dirty bitches pussy ion want tht on my mouth" i say scrunching my face up.
"igh i see." he says pushing me off his laps.
"haaa now u mad." i say laughing laying down in my bed.
"ain't nobody mad lil girl." he says standing up
"if u ain't mad why u push me off u." i said sitting up
"cs u obviously don't want me near u since i fucked jackie."
i roll my eyes "come here boy" i say standing up and holding out my arms. i give him a hug and apologize "i'm sorry big baby." i say chucking.
"u da baby" he say kissing me.

this feels so wrong but it feels so right at the same time. i can't stop thinking about jae but tay is right here lips on mine. ts is so hard but imma live in my moment. i'm young and single, fuck a relationship.