losing my mind

Ep.10

I woke up to Tay's warm body pressed against mine. i check my phone and it reads 4:37 am why i keep waking up so early. I place my phone face down n lay on my back staring at the ceiling contemplating my decision. no i didn't fuck jay ian that kinda bitch he jus spent the night after we talked about what to do and watched a movie. We're deciding it's best not to jump into anything right now and to give like a month or 2 before we make any decision about getting together. i feel so guilty, i can't get my night with Jae out of my head i miss him so much not even on no freaky ass shit jus as a best friend. He started rapping and blowing up now it ain't no time for me anymore. i miss what we had before all the fame but that's what keeps food on his plate and money in his pockets so ian too mad, i jus want my bestfriend back. tears start falling down my cheeks as i lie down.
"you good Zomi, what's keeping u up?" i hear a Tay say in his groggy voice
"nun Tay go back to bed." i say not wanting to look at him
"what's wrong zomi?" he says, i feel him sit up
"nothing tayvion jus go back to sleep i jus had a bad dream but i'm fine." i say turning around to lay away from him. i feel him grab my arm and pull me.
"Zo baby what's wrong?" he says grabbing my face
"don't call me that and i'm fine can we jus lay down" i sniffle, my dad used to call me zo i don't like talking about him so..
"Why..? what's wrong?" he asks concerned
"nothing i'm just tired pls can we jus lay down." i ask holding back tears
"yeah come here" he says pulling me into a hug and layin down. i don't know what it was, me missing Jae, the guilt or the reminder of my dad but i started sobbing in tay's arms. he didn't ask any questions just held me and let me know he was there, there to hold me when i was sad, there too talk to, there to hold me while i cried. n that's all i needed. i ended up calming down n dozing off.
The sun had risen by time i woke up. tay was nowhere to be found. hm that's weird,

i grab my phone to text him and no reply. i decided to get up and go to my desk. shortly after i hear footsteps coming up the stairs and down the hall.  tay opens my door with a tray of breakfast foods in hand.
"what's all this for" i ask chuckling a bit
"i jus wanted to do something special, from a friend to a friend ya know." he says handing me the food.
"well thank you" i say standing up and hugging him
"anytime" he says kissing me on my forehead.
I ate the food and got my day started. once i got out the shower and got dressed i began to brush my teeth then tay spawned outta the blue. hugging me from the back as i brush my teeth, he already brushed his so ntm, after i rinse my mouth and floss i ask
"why you all cuddly wit me right now?"
"ion know it jus feel good to know you under me."  he says moving with me as i wash my face.
"ok , can u hand me my face towel please, it's the pink one " i ask, he hands me my towel and i finish my skin care
" boy u finna hold me as i leave the bathroom too? i ask sarcastically
"nah" he says picking me up and carrying me to my room. i forgot this strong ass nigga did basketball got me shocked asl
"damn hulk." I say as he lays me on my bed.
"you know i do football" he says layin to me. still can't believe this nigga showed up to my house wit a spend da night bag. *Ring ring *
I turn over in my bed to pick up my phone.
"Hey sis." i say excitedly, she's in miami with her boyfriend and her friend so i've been missing her bad.
"hey boo." she says smiling "how's everything going with ur boy drama?" she asks giggling
i take a glance at Tay and then look back at her
"it's cool" i say before turning the phone to tay. "say hey Tay tay." i say
"hey wsg." he says
"heyy" Gigi says. i turn the phone back to me.
"soo how's ur trip going?" i ask to break the ice
"baby it's amazing, might come back wit a baby" she says laughing
"please do, i wanna be a auntie." i say jokingly
"nah but all seriousness i jus took a pregnancy test" she says as her facial expression drops to serious.
"bitch what the fuck." i say sitting up
"i'm joking girl chill." she says laying down
"oh ok, bitch don't scare me like that again."  i say rolling my eyes
"ok my bad she says, i gotta go i love u pretty." she says waving
"love you moreee " i say before hangin up.
Glad nobodies pregnant.. orr