Recovery

Trial and Error

    I failed a lot...it also takes me longer to learn from my mistake or trip up's. I know when I'm wrong but I love being right. But I'm human and still will fail and things regardless. "If you do what you always done, you will always get the same results"- A.R. 🌙.   How am I to change, learn or grow if I was never shown how to in the first place. There was no book or manuscript to help me. Just myself and it take a lot for me to get it right. Just like Thomas Jefferson I'm fail til I get it right. I just know I didn't fail I found out how many ways I could make it not work before I found the right way. 

     I get confused a lot, lost a lot, wander a lot. But I'm just curious to know the world and life. I get bored easily and feel like I need entertain but I want entertainment to be involved in. Not just to watch... I would have stayed home and watched tv if I wanted that. I need experiences to make me feel alive to feel my heart beat.  I just want new things they make me happy and I'm less likely to be depressed. I like making new memories to hold on too. So that way when I'm gray and old I know what was important to me. But I also want someone to do all that with so we can share the same memories. So trial an error until I get it right.