Quiet Moments c.l.

In another life

After awhile me and Lando had gotten tired so we went back to our spots at the bar.

We both just drank coke.

Why wouldn't Charles stop looking at me. His eyes were the only thing on my mind. Over conversation from earlier began running through my mind.

"Oh and A just so you know I haven't stop loving since we were toddlers."

"You good?" Lando asked from beside me.

My head snapped to him. Forgetting that I was even in here for a minute I nodded to him.

"Oh yeah I'm okay."

"For what it's worth he seems miserable with out you."

"Who?" He gave me the dumbest look I've ever seen. "Don't be stupid Aj."

My head pulled to the brown headed boy in the booth, his head was layed on the table. And his eyes were pinched shut.

"I had heard about you in the circuits growing up. You, Charles, and Max. Everyone was always so jealous of you and Charles. The girls were jealous of you because you had Charles wrapped around your finger and the boys were jealous of Charles because he got to be wrapped around your finger. You were quite the hot topic especially when like teenage years came. Not many girls being on the track you were like a celebrity. But yet you only ever had eyes for him." He couldn't help but laugh and so did I.

It was completely true. Me and Charles was just like the duo. If you seen one of us you saw the other.

"You guys have been through alot together. He's missed you alot. When people would ask about you in interviews you could just see the flood of emotions that came over him like a dark cloud."

"You're a great guy you know that, Lando."

"Aj I know trust me." He said with a grin. I smiled and rolled my eyes.

"You're lucky. Not many people get the bond you two have. Don't let it go to waste." I felt tears threatening to fall as I really listened to his words.

He pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around his torso.

"No more crying, go talk to him silly." He pushed me to the table Charles was at.

Charlotte was not at the booth at the moment and I couldn't be happier.

I sat on the booth across from him. His head still layed in the same position.

"Hey." My voice came out strained and cracked.

His head shot up as his eyes met mine.

His once full dark glass, was now empty. Only a dark tint on the ice that sat at the bottom.

"Aj."

I gave him a light smile.

"So I wanted to talk to you ab-"

I was cut off as the most god awful sound came into ear range.

"Charles baby, can we leave I'm bor-. Why are you over here." She cut herself off when she saw me.

"I was just leaving. But by the way Mama P and Artie are meeting us in Azerbaijan." I smiled at Charlotte but she just scoffed.

"Who is that." She is such a bitch.

"His mom and brother?" I gave a funny look.

"Oh great now we can't be alone." She had the nerve to roll her eyes and that's when I stood up.

"Okay bitch that's enough. You can say whatever you want about me and be a bitch about everything but do not disrespect Pascale and Arthur. I know you have Charles under your little claws but trust me one day your little claws will break and he's going to get away but until I hope your happy. And Pascale and Arthur are staying with me so you two can do whatever in the fuck you want. Fucking weirdos." I didn't give her a chance to say anything back to me as I left.

"Aj. Wait." Charles yelled from behind me as I headed out the door. Tears now fell from my eyes. I couldn't handle it. I began to fall apart.

I had to get to the hotel.

A storm had blown over and the rain poured. The lightning made me jump and my heart race as it shot across the sky.

I hate lightning.

I know I can't get him away from her and I won't fight over him. I can't handle fighting over him.

I wanted a drink so bad.

I could barely walk as crippling sobs came from my chest.

I'm alone and in a panic.

I couldn't breath. My body was shaking and I felt froze.

I wanted Charles. But I couldn't have Charles. He's not mine. Not anymore.

"THENA!" A soaking wet Charles ran up behind me. I couldn't do anything but cry as I looked at him.

"Thena." His voice was quieter. I could barely hear him over the raging storm.

"What!" I did my best to sound like an asshole and hurt it feelings but the sobs that followed it didn't help my case.

"Go back to your little girlfriend. I'll call Max." His body went rigid.

"If that's who you want right now I'll take you to Max, but if not please please let me help you." He was pleading with me now.

I laughed through my tears.

"Of fucking course the only person I want on this planet is you, Charles. The only person I've ever wanted to go to. But I can't because we're not us anymore. You and Charlotte are us. Me and you were just teammates now."

"Aj we both knows that not true and it won't ever be true no matter how much you tell yourself that and how much I tell myself that. You are my girl don't you get that." He was now much closer to me now.

"Whether that be platonic or romantic I really don't know but you are my girl forever and ever. That's just how it is. And if a girl doesn't understand you are my favorite person on this earth, then I guess we will just have to grow old together because I'm not losing you again. These two years have been absolutely miserable. My nightmares are back and I know yours are too. I want us to be okay. I want you to be by me again please." Tears fell down his cheeks.

"Please I love you and I can't go another day without knowing me and you are us again."

I had no words to speak, it felt like the air had been ripped from my lungs.

"Charles-"

"CHARLES! Why are you with her!" Charlotte came stomping towards us.

"Charles I love you but I guess it wasn't meant to be in this life, maybe in another." I smiled as tears streamed down my face.

"No wait! Please." He tried to pull me back to him.

"No Charles. I'm going to the hotel room and I'm going to sleep."

With that I walked away. Leaving him standing in the rain as his girlfriend came up to him but my heart was in a million pieces.

In another life I guess.