Wanted for mercy

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Her eyes
Holy fuck-
Her eyes were a heaven to get lost in

Draco hated himself, all this to keep her safe and still she has endured too much. He watched as Hermione tossed and turned, he reeled back as she woke in a panic, her back was turned to the door-

What happened to your gold Granger?

He couldn't hold off, Draco rushed to her side, his hands moved around Hermione tightly. She startled but ultimately turned into him, her face drenched in tears and her sob could be heard from miles away.

"Hush, shhh Granger." Malfoy whispered, he couldn't allow them to be found this way

"Get off me! I do not need your-"

"Granger. I said be quiet, you're okay."

"None of this will ever be okay!"

He knew she hated herself, for being alive, for breaking down in front of him- for being weak. He thought the opposite. She wasn't weak, Hermione Granger was the strongest woman he'd ever seen, despite her blood and heritage.

They didn't speak again, all that was in the air was crippling exhaustion from both of them, his back against the head board as he tried to listen to anything but her quiet sobbing, it was hard not too especially since it's his fault.

Draco's neck felt as if it was swelling, that urge to violently cry, the throbbing sensation in your throat, it was his turn. Draco hadn't cried in years, it wasn't something he did. He took his own sadness out on others, on drinking, on drugs, sex- anything but crying. Now it's too inevitable, he had too. So he did, he cradled her and joined her once soft breaths came from her chest.

Draco couldn't hurt her, couldn't hurt his fucked up family, Nova was getting worse, Theo too with his new desire to quite literally tear order members in two, the spy was causing great stress on him and the person knew it... like Draco was being tested but not fully challenged- something was holding them back... he wanted to know what.

"Sleep. The cogs in your brain are deafening." Hermione whispered, he tried to cover a hiccup

"You sleep. You're the one drowning in your own sorrows and- OW!"

"Shut up then. Don't ruin this."

"What would I be ruining?" He asked

"I don't know but whatever you're doing it's making me crazy." Hermione mumbled with sleep

Fuck it.

Fuck the dark Lord- his father- death eaters- his own consciousness- he wanted to lay with her, to smell the way she smelt in sixth year... the rich ginger coming from her hair mixed with whatever perfume she wore perfectly... he missed it.

"Is it like you remember?" Hermione whispered

"No. You have no gold left in you Granger." He replied

Sleep damn you

"And who's fault is that?" She whispered, a little harshly if you asked him

"Mine. All mine."

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Draco didn't sleep a wink that night, he left her side only hours later, missing her warmth. There was a scavenging hunt, one that every death eater was required to join in. Draco saw Zabini, Nott, Nova and- is that Penny? He'll ask later, His eyes sharpened and he compartmentalised his mind, show nothing.

"Malfoy."

"Nova. How wonderfully hungover you look today, best hope you don't find the spy." He looked at her up and down

"Why is that blondie? Because I'll stumble?"

"Most definitely but no, because you'll let them go." He whispered the last part into her ear

Malfoy leaned away from her, his attention drawing to Blaise who looked like he wanted to be anywhere but there and Theo who looked like he was ready to rip the earth to shreds, his eyes weren't his own... it was sickening.

"Don't go away for too long, we might loose you entirely."

"Impossible." Theo grinned

Draco called out, his orders to find the spy out in the open and the days long search began. He couldn't fathom why he felt the need to rush to her side- he couldn't stop thinking- no over analysing it.

Draco saw a snippet of Gabriel and Evan, going through an alcove away from everyone else, he walked away completely dismissing Blaise's voice. He knew they'd all get on with it, they had learned not to question him.

The more he walked, the more they did, ducking whenever he felt they might look behind themselves. Draco controlled his breath, they finally stopped, he caught a glimpse of- was Gabriel smiling? They turned into a corner, Draco not far behind.

"I reckon we have about ten minutes before someone notices." Gabriel said

"I reckon they already have, I got a shiver down my spine as we were-"

"Stop worrying, I'm sure of it. Are you finished? I'm loosing time to absolutely ravish you." Gabriel rolled his eyes

"I'm- if we get caught we'll be flocked and killed. There's a reason this stays behind our bedroom door Gabe." Evan sighed

"I know." Gabriel uttered "Fuck them. I want you, I want to kiss you in public, to buy you dinner without the fear of being called upon."

Kiss? Draco cringed, but he couldn't look away

"The war is coming to an end, you can't expect us to be fearless when Granger scares you.." Evan laughed

"I am not scared of her." Gabriel scoffed

"You are, you're the bloody same and it's clearly scaring you. Maybe you should show some kindness." Evan huffed

"Why should I? What kindness has she shown me Ev? Fucking none." Gabe hissed, his eyes on the grass beside them

She's shown plenty, you're just a prick. A moment passed, another one of their minutes gone to waste

"That doesn't matter right now anyway, are you going to keep wasting our last six minutes?" Evan tweeted quietly

"We could get caught.." He spoke again, his anxiety proving stronger than his desire to kiss Gabriel

"We'll be just fine." Gabriel had the brightest smile on his face, his lips on Evans, his hands circulating around Evans chest-

Snap- fuck was that me? How did this surpass me?

They snapped apart, Evan breathing heavily and Gabriel's eyes thin as paper as his eyes searched their surroundings... if Draco hadn't of moved he would have been seen, he decided to get back to the mission, his brain was filled with thousands of 'why's' and not enough 'because's'. Draco felt a tinge of hurt, he didn't know if it was because he loved them and knowing they couldn't be free hurt him too or if it was because they felt they couldn't be together in front of him. A breath of relief was released as he knew he was the only one who saw that, who saw them kiss.

Except he wasn't.

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