His beautiful girl

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On the last date with Alex, I was nervous but now I was excited. I could not wait for tonight. 

To let the day pass I decided to go to my mom. When I enter I see my dad in the kitchen making something. 'Hey, Dad.' I say while looking around me searching for my mom. 'Hey honey, your mom is sleeping. She is still tired of your trip to Paris.' My father says immediately when he looks at me.

'I hope I didn't make her too tired.' My father shakes his head 'She loved it, she could talk for hours about it.' I smile and look at his was has to be his dough I think. 

'Do you need help?' 'Yes please, I think I did something wrong.' I laugh and help my dad with his cake. After 30 minutes the cake is in the oven and my mom enters the living room where my dad and me are watching the news. 

'Hey, Mom.' I say white a smile on my face as I see her. 'Hey honey, how are you?' She asks white a big smile on her face. I hug her and we talk a lot. She tells me all about what she did in Paris forgetting that I was with her but I didn't mind. Charles his advice really helps. I just let go and have as much time with her as possible. I love her so much.

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I'm ready for the date but Alex had not arrived yet, he still had 10 minutes left so I was not too worried. Alex knocked on my door when I looked at the time and it was 2 past 6. I open the door and saw Alex standing with his hands in his pockets. 

He looked me up and down and smiled at me. 'You look beautiful.' I blush and enter the hallway to close the door. 'Thanks, you look handsome.' I say with a smile. I lock my door and we enter the elevator.

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Alex had not booked a restaurant or anything, we ended up on a beach. A little picnic with the sun going down and I love it. It was so romantic and beautiful that I just could fall in love with the view. 

'I hope this is also good and you did not hope for a fancy restaurant.' He says when we go sit on the blanket on the beach. 'I love it, it's so beautiful.' I say with a shy smile. 'I hope you like Chinese food.' I nod and take what he gives me out of the basket. 

'So how was Paris?' Alex asks when I eat a bit of my chicken. 'It was amazing, I think my mom also loved it. We did like all the amazing places my brother always talked about because it was my first time in Paris actually.' 'Really?' I nod and look at him. 

'So you have a brother, where is he?' 'He moved to New Zeeland. For his job and found his girlfriend there. We decided that I should go to Monaco but he comes every time he possibly can. He calls every night with my mom though. And sometimes I hear him.' Alex nods and also eats. 'Do you have a good relationship with him?' 

'I do, when we grew up we had a good bond. He was and is always there for me. I was sad of course he moved to New Zeeland but that's life I guess. You grow up and live your own life.' I feel he doesn't really know what to say because I was talking about a hard topic in my life.

'Do you have a brother or sister?' Alex shakes his head. 'No, my parents wanted just 1 kid. I would have loved a brother or sister but Charles became my brother, his family felt like my family. We like did everything together. If you wanted to look for me you just had to find Charles everybody told us.' I laugh and his comment. 

'I'm a bit jealous of that actually, I also wanted such a friend growing up but I'm happy now.' Alex takes my hand and rubs his thumb on my skin. 'I'm always here for you if you need anything. Does not matter if it is money or some pep talk.' I smile and blush. 'Thanks, Alex, that means a lot to me.' He smiles and I feel tension between us. 

Not in a bad way or anything but in a tempting way. I shake it off and we have a great evening. We talk a lot and I feel so comfortable next to him.

But after the sun has gone down I feel the tempering atmosphere again. I look at him and he made me shiver. I look at the ocean and look back at him but he did not look away. He comes closer and before I know it he kisses me and I did not know what to do. 

Should I kiss him back or should I push him away? The only thing I'm thinking about when Alex is kissing me is fucking CHARLES LECLERC. I want to get him off my mind so I kiss Alex back. 

I put my hand on his neck and kiss him passionately. We make out and it does not help. Do not think about him do not think about him I repeat into my head. While making out for like 5 minutes I hear a phone ring. It's not mine because I don't recognize the ringtone. 

Alex pulls away and looks at his phone. 'I'm Sorry, I really have to take this.' Alex stands up and walks a little further so I don't hear the conversation. I felt a little uncomfortable, I was thinking about Charles the whole time while kissing him and I feel so bad. 

He is such a nice person but I realise it now. I'm in love With Charles... Fuck I'm in love with Charles. FUCK FUCK FUCK what have I done... The adrenaline enters my veins and I feel like I have to run. Run away from here but I just can't. I look at Alex and I see he hangs up the phone. I feel like I just killed someone and have to hide the blood on my hands.

He walks back to me with a regretful face. 'I'm so sorry Emily but I really need to go. Something came up at work and I really need to be there.' Something in me is relieved he needs to go because I think I would have to run away, or just puke because of the tension I have in my body.

I feel so bad and sick because of what I did. 'It's okay, go don't worry about me I will walk home it's not that far anyway.' 'Are you sure?' I nod and stand up. Alex walks closer to me and kisses me. 'I will text you.' He walks away to his car. And not long after he drove away. 

I had to kiss a guy to know I'm in love with his best friend. What a mess have I made. Fuck