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Peonies And Irises:Page Thirty

James have you been drinking Annabelle
you don't understand today is a hard day
for me I drink so I can forget
forget what James I-I can't talk about it
James listen to me I want to be there to
help you through whatever your going
Through but I can't do that if I don't know
what's wrong Annabelle tell me something
when you found out that your dad and sister
had a accident how did you feel about it
I felt worried because I didn't know if they
were okay but how does that have anything
to do with what is going on with you
it has something to do with me because
that's how I felt this day last year what why
I felt that way because that was the day
my sister was involved in a car accident.

[Annabelle talking]
[To herself]
Wait so that's what
they meant when
they said this
happened before

What Annabelle oh sorry I was talking
Out loud I do that sometimes
It's okay what did you mean when you
Said 'this happened before'
Oh that it was something that Emily,
Scott and Jennie said earlier when
They heard principal freemen tell me that
My sister and my father got in a car crash
I thought it was weird because I didn't
Know what they were talking about
But now I know they said it because
Your sister was involved in a car crash
Too yeah after the crash my sister went
missing and my heart went missing with her
so that's why you been drinking yeah that's why
I only let myself drink twice a year on my
sister's birthday and today she was my favorite
person in the whole world Annabelle and then
I lost her she was about to graduate in a
couple months so her and my ex Sophie
went to the mall and on their way back they hit
a patch of black ice on the road and hit a tree
Sophie walked away with only some minor
scraps and bruises and Alex my sister
was no where to be found Sophie was the one
behind the wheel after four months of non stop
searching we never found her so my parents
decided to have a funeral for her and bury a
empty casket but I didn't go to it I stayed home
But every year on her birthday I always go out
and buy a bouquet of her favorite flowers and
Go put them on her grave and just sit there
by myself and just talk to her like as if she is
really there it's my way of being able to be
with her on her birthday even though she's
  not really there
her favorite flowers were peonies and irises.