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Olivia
8:16 AM

I'm a bad person, aren't I?

Nagsiself blame na naman po sha

🙁

Although I'll admit
That's just too cold of you 🥹

I feel guilty
Hindi ko alam kung bakit hahaha
Tangina
I'm not the one who was kept in the dark for too long, but why do I feel so shitty?
Bakit sa tingin ko ako nalang yung palaging masama?

Nic, I can assure you
You're not, okay?
Please be kinder to yourself
It's not your fault that Cali is back and she just happens to be the niece of a house member
They're only together for the meantime

I just don't know what to do anymore
I find it hard to trust Theo
I don't even know why I'm saying this hahaha
Wala naman akong karapatan lol
Hindi naman ako girlfriend niya
Why did he even go that far to explain things to me?

Because he's trying, Nicole 🥹
That's him telling you that he wants a real relationship with you
Oo nag-explain siya, because you deserve to know his intentions, but he specifically told you that he has no feelings for Cali anymore
Hindi ba yan isang palatandaan?
He doesn't want to get back with Cali because he wants a future with you

Lol
That's just plain bullshit
Ayokong magmukhang tangang umaasa

Edi lumabas din ang katotohanan hhshsgaha
You really have feelings for him, Nicole
I know you do
Hindi ka lang takot sa commitment kundi pati rin sa pag-admit ng feelings mo kay Theo

Even though I'll admit my feelings towards him, it doesn't mean I'm not scared to commit anymore
It still scares the shit out of me, Oli

I thought you wanted to talk to him about your relationship first before deciding?

No
Oli
I have something to tell you 🙁

Ano ‘yon?
Puntangina Nicole 🥹
Umayos ka ha
Kinakabahan ako

Kasi
It's about my period
It's late

HA
Are you kidding me?????
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11:57 PM

Nicole
HOY
Tangina
TEH UMAYOS KA MAGREPLY KA
Puta naman talaga
🥹🥹🥹🥹
You really had to drop that bomb at this instant????
Teka are you sure ba????
Did you check your calendar?

I've checked multiple times
It's supposed to be last week pa
I'm getting nervous, Oli 🥹

AKO RIN AMPOTA TEKA LANG
Teka lang
Just calm down
Okay so
I doubt it
You said Theo has been busy lately
So it's impossible

No, Olivia
The camping trip
My ovulation period
It all makes sense

Oh my gosh 🥹
Wait
Did you use protection that time?

Dude you're seriously asking me that?
Palagi kaming nag-iingat
I just don't understand

It happens to people 🥹
Even taking pills doesn't assure you can never be pregnant
The only thing would be abstinence
But
Tell me, how do you feel about it?
I mean what if
What if there's really...

I don't know
I'm freaking out
I don't know what to do
I bought two pregnancy tests but I'm still scared to test myself
I'm just too scared to find out, Oli

It can be really scary 🙁
I can't imagine myself in your shoes, Nic
Do you want me there?
I can go now

No no no it's fine
I just need time for myself
I can handle this
It all just feels so overwhelming
My emotions are flowing and I can't seem to identify if it's anger or frustration or sadness

🙁🙁🙁
Is this the reason why you don’t want to continue your relationship with Theo?
Because you're scared?
Hindi lang dahil takot kang ipagpatuloy ang relasyon niyo, but you're scared because you might be pregnant

Oli 🥺
I'm shaking hahahaha
I do have feelings for Theo, but asking more from our current relationship seems really unfair for him 🙁
You know that I've always wanted to have children
Theoden knows it, he likes kids too
But I'm not planning to have one this soon
I'm not in the right state to be a mother
I have my parents’ money but I would never ask them to provide for a child
I'm not even mentally prepared for this
I feel like I would crumble and fall the moment I bring it to this world
I can't give a future for a kid, Oli
But I'm scared because if it's a child with Theo, then I would not hesitate to accept it 🙁

Nic ☹️☹️☹️
That's just too much
You really love Theo that much?
You can be a great mother, I'm sure of it
And I would never question you if you want to abort it
Pero kung meron talaga, at least let him know about it

No
Dear god no
Are you insane???
I know he has the right to know but I would never tell him, Oli
Hindi na kailangan pa kung ikasisira niya naman iyon
He’s graduating this year and there's a big chance he’ll get the highest attainment
I don't know what's exactly going on between him and Cali but I don't wanna ruin it if it makes him happy
And he's a fucking son of a senator running for this year's election, It would completely ruin their family name
It all just seems like a mistake telling him all of this right now ☹️

That's true though 🙁
Idk Nicole
Ang complicated
But please, test yourself
No matter what your decision will be, always know that I’ll be here to support you okay?

Thank you, Oli 🥺
Thank you always for being here

I gotchu, boo 🙁❤️
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