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Olivia
1:50 AM

SERIOUSLY
I fucking hate this guy
He even had the nerve to tell me to stop going out on dates????
Ano naman ngayon kung makipagdate ako diba????
Geez
Nasan ba niya kinukuha ang lakas ng loob na pagsabihan ako?
Read 8:02 AM

8:05 AM

So it's not a good morning huh...
What did Theo do?
WAIT WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT
I SLEPT ALL THROUGHOUT THE DRAMA 😭

I told Jared that Theo was the guy

Yeah and???
How did that turn out?

He was mad at first of course 🥹
Bakit hindi ko raw sinabi sa kanya agad
But later that he calmed down and told me he'll just take me home ☹️

Damn he was really mad MAD

I felt really bad because Jared was enjoying the night and yet we had to come home because of what I said

Hey don't blame yourself Nic

But it is my fault tho 😣
We said goodbye to his friends and it would be rude if I didn't say goodbye to Alec, Colin, and Theo
Kaya ayon, I said goodbye to him 🥹
It was the first time I even spoke to him in two weeks and it was a goodbye 😭

HELP 😭😭😭😭😭

While we were in the car Jared was completely quiet
I mean RADIO SILENT
So when we arrived at my condo I asked him if he wanted to talk it out
Because I really didn't want it to end badly 🙁

And he agreed naman?

Yes he did
We went inside my condo and talked
And I don't know how it happened, but I kinda told him I didn't like having casual relationships anymore

WAIT REALLY???
Pero yan naman talaga gusto mo diba, something casual 😭
Since Jared was indeed still fresh from a breakup

I dunno Oli
Words came out of my mouth just out of the blue and I know right then it was what I really felt :(
After what happened with Theo, I figured I didn't want anything casual anymore

Aww 🙁

It just feels so heavy
Napakabigat sa parapakiramdam na para bang may ginagawa akong masama
It feels like cheating, and it doesn't feel good at all
I didn't want to be unfair to Jared
Him and I cleared things last night
We both agreed it was kind of toxic for both of us to be in this kind of relationship
And we decided to be just friends

Well damn
The turn of events! 😭
EH BAKIT NAGDRUNK TEXT SI THEO???

Oh yeah that 🥹
I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW
Nagulat nga rin ako 😭
After Jared left my condo around 1AM, I suddenly got those texts from Theo

It only means one thing
HE WAS FREAKING JEALOUS OBVI!!!
Even when you guys were still at the club
He couldn't take his eyes off of you 🥹

Lol jealous
Why would he be jealous?
Para namang naaapektuhan talaga siya

Baka hindi nga niya maipakita, but clearly what happened between you two is really affecting him
Only liquid courage made him own up to his feelings 🥹

Feelings niya mukha niya
He's acting as if he cares for me
Why would he even say those?
He was the one who fucked up things between us

Yeah, and he's clearly guilty about it
What if he really cares for you though?
What if he loves you?

Don't feed my delusions like that 😭😭😭
He's constantly with his ex remember?
There's no way he could ever like me if he's still in love with his ex

Nic... ☹️
I don't know about it, but there's no other explanation why he's acting like this
Ikaw na nga yung nagsabi, what's in it for him to drunk-text you if he really doesn't care about what happened between the two of you?

🙁🙁🙁
Am I too heartess, Oli?

DUDE WHAT
Of course notttt

No cause I feel like
Sometimes I'm too insensitive
I don't mind other people's feelings
I disregard them too often that I won't even realize that I've hurt them
Maybe this is the reason why I can't keep a guy
With this kind of behavior and attitude, I don't think any guy will last long with me :(

Hey wtf
You're not insensitive, okay?
Hindi mo lang alam paano ihandle emotions mo, Nic

I just think that sometimes
I'm even incapable of recognizing the things they are giving me, or how they show their affection towards me
Maybe they'll think I'm too ungrateful about it, but I just don't know what's genuine or not anymore

I'm so sorry you feel that way ☹️
But if you really think about that, siguro you just need to open your heart more and maybe embrace your true feelings
Allow yourself to acknowledge and experience them fully
Because vulnerability doesn't make you weak, it's just another way to heal
Read 8:42 AM