𝕾𝖊𝖆 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕾𝖐𝖞.... (𝕭𝖙𝖘//𝕺𝕮𝖘) (Under Editing)

Chapter 39

Every emotion has a story to tell...

Some truth time...
Warnings... Mention of depression etc etc... Maybe self harm.

Jihan... Never expected seeing Ayla soo broken.... He never expected seeing the most strongest and cold girl so weak... He wanted to leave but the Kim Siblings dky.... Just trusted him soo much... They all just dk... They all trust him that they didn't mind him staying...

Ayla sobbed.

It... All started when he died..... Our little brother died.
Ayla said.... Jihan's eyes widened... His heart beat increased... All were shocked... And frozen.

Seira felt the floor crumbling... Hearing about him after years.

Their little brother.

Who was just a child... But the cruel world didn't cared.

10..... I was 10 years old... But you... You were just 8 and he... Just 6 and half well a bit more elder... I was already traumatized by Oppa's death... That those cruel people lit our house on fire..... I saw my brother's crib burn.... I HEARD HIS CRIES... but i was defenseless.... I managed to safe you... But what about him... The regret ate me.... Mom wasn't even there... Our nanny... She was outside.... She was not with us either...... I FAILED AS AN ELDER SISTER.... You were more sad than me.... You used to wake up crying........ I hated it Seira... How could I've said that I'm breaking as well? How.... I got nightmares everyday.... Everyday I was suffering.... Everyday I.... I was... Dying... But i had to smile just so you could be happy Seira... After his death.... It was hard... But i still managed...... I still managed... At 14 I had so much sleeping problems that I started....... I started...... Smoking.
Ayla said.... That was another bomb.

WHAT?
Jungkook yelled holding her shoulders.

Are you crazy? Were you really trying to murder yourself.
Namjoon asked angry... Ayla shook her head.

At 15.... I started buying sleeping injections illegally... But they were needed only sometimes... Because i met YuRa... My lifesaver.... Until I turned 16... A person.... Was obsessed with me and wanted to become my boyfriend... He forced me to be his girlfriend or he'll hurt the people I care about.... And i agreed and please listen before interrupting me... He used to hit me... Well mostly slaps..... And being obsessed... Hurtful words... I was thinking about that so much that the injections were being much needed.... When finally I got the courage and rejected him.... He..... Managed to lock me in his farmhouse.... It was too dark..... Too dark.... I was already claustrophobic and somniphobic... As mom used to lock me in a small dark room at night at every small mistake after dad died... It was too much... It was night time... He hired people to dress up as ghosts and scare me..... Idk... If I've ever been this scared my entire life......... I.... I still remember every moment of that night........ I.... I still remember....... I.. After that.... I relied on the things you found completely.... I.... I... Was just not able to handle it anymore.... I.... I was scared.... I... Got nightmares of those.... Ghosts every night... I.... Can't.
Ayla sobbed... Hoseok and Yoongi hugged her... Even though she left many details... She told the main reasons.. Seira was shocked.

And sad.... That she never even knew what her sister was going through.... She never even realized anything.

How can i tell you I'm suffering Seira..... How can I make you suffer with me.... You feel every pain I do..... How can I let you?
Ayla said... Seira fisted her hands.

You can....... But you're too selfish for that.... I hate you unnie.
Seira said and left the house... Not wanting to hear anything else... Jin shouted for her to stop... But she just started the car and drove away in a high speed.